Mmkay, so I had my first experience the other night and wrote about it here:http://www.dreamviews.com/community/...ad.php?t=94820
Decided to try again the next night.
Went through starry/swirly hypnagogic imagry, then on to the brainslurry/memory footprint stage... I was waiting for my body to fall asleep. I messed it up a couple of times because my body started to ache from remaining in the same position for so long, and at one point my foot itched also. But eventually I started again and kept going, realizing that hey. Obviously, we ITCH AND ACHE *while* we're asleep, we just aren't aware to be annoyed by it until we finish a cycle and become barely conscious enough to address it and itch/roll over! So the only difference was being aware of it.
And I felt it, this sensation of falling through the bed! It actually felt like I'd fallen and LANDED, like a JOLT, or like I'd sunk into the bed/rolled into the wall. I thought to myself, 'Damnit. First my body hurts, then I'm itchy... Now I'm falling off the frickin' bed. How'm I supposed ta lucidly enter the dreamworld like this?!' (The thing I failed to notice here was: how the hell would I have rolled over 'on accident' while I was aware? The only answer is that I HADN'T rolled over, because I didn't do it consciously, and if I was unconscious- then there would BE no 'rolling over' because I'm asleep and paralyzed, right??)
So here's my mistake: I decided that if I was going to try to dream lucidly I sure as hell didn't wanna be falling off the bed while I was doing it, assuming I was still awake; so I decided to roll back into the middle of the bed. I started exerting all of this force, trying to roll over... And it was VERY HARD. It was like trying to play frisbee with a bowling ball. Like I was trying to shove a bloody couch.
I finally rolled over... At which point I realized that, I'm pretty sure, I'd already been frickin' dreaming/asleep- as rolling over WOKE ME UP!! Which would explain the immense difficulty rolling over, right? Forcing my body out of this... Sleep paralysis? And no, I hadn't been 'falling off' of the bed- I'd been right in the middle of it that entire time!
The transition between 'awake' and 'asleep' had just been so seamless... There was the 'falling' feeling and then I was there, in my bed, still 'waiting for sleep so I can dream lucidly', still calmly repeating to myself that I would soon be dreaming- exactly what I'd been doing *before* falling asleep.
Is this what's called a 'false awakening'?
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