Normally I dream a lot, 3 to 6 times a night, and I have pretty good dream recall. So last night I set up my dream journal with new book light attached, listened to a Le Barge meditation, said repeatedly to myself, In my next dream I'm going to know I'm dreaming.

So then I couldn't sleep. Finally got to sleep around 4 am, then had old ex husband yucky dreams. I think I might have set myself up for that because in the day I thought since I don't see him much, I would know I'm dreaming if I dream about him.

I remember the first time I tried to meditate, my thoughts were all over the place, couldn't get my mind to settle. Then on the next meditation, I made my thoughts the focus object, and they wouldn't come out to play. It's like, IF you're going to watch, I'm not going to come out. I think that happened with my dreams too.

During the day, I'm doing reality checks, but I think I need to ease up a little at night, take some pressure off. The dream I did have this morning, I wasn't lucid at all, not even close, and I've drug the yucky emotions along into wake time. Maybe later today I'll take a nap.

Do you find you scare your dreams away by promising to know you're dreaming?