I'm new, things about me, please advise if you can

**Lil Heaven** · 08-09-2005 06:22 AM

My name is Taquia and I've had a very tramatic life and I need advice as it states in the subject. I'll start the story I guess:

My mother was born with polio and she was never supposed to have children, yet she became pregnant with me. My sister's mom had a ton of miscarriages and they never expected a child, but she had my sister. Both of us were our mother's only children. We have (had) two brothers as well, but they both commited suicide. Our oldest brother Doug did it before I was born, and my other brother Donavon did it when I was 2. Donavon had lived with our dad and my mom (and me) but left and when he left he went to a mental hospital from what had happened in that house when I was a baby. When he got out of the hospital he killed himself immediatly with an aunt of ours that helped convince him to do so. That same aunt then went to my sister and told her that she's next, and she didn't understand for she didn't know that donavon had passed on.

My parents seperated and my mom went to marry some guy, and I've always been ultra sensitive where I can sense feelings or other things as well. I cried through the whole wedding, and I wouldn't settle down (this was unusual for me, for I was never like that). We (my mom, me, and stepdad) all moved down here, and I had never met my siblings (except for when i was a baby and donavon lived with us) nor did i know at that time that I had any.

Weird things started to happen as I grew up, I felt as if i wasn't supposed to be here. I would have weird dreams which elevated the thought of not being here. The first dream I noticed was one where I was in bed and a woman with a list in her hand was standing next to me and other people were yelling. The man told the woman that I had had 7 chances and I failed, and that I wasn't supposed to be here. He kept yelling she's had her chances its my turn she failed she didn't do it, her seven are up. The woman just stood there and shook her head, she said we will give her more time. That is when I woke up. Many nights I would see things coming down the hallway and they would look into my room, and then turn away toward my mom/stepdads room. There was also a pair of eyes I saw once in the closet.

I later started to have dreams of a house, a victorian old looked as though it was yellow house on a hill. There was a road going up to it. In my dreams I can mostly always control what I do in them. In the dreams of the house i owned it, yet other people were always using it. Its always nighttime when I went there (dreamed it) and the grandfather clock (that I have now, I was given it) would chime midnight and the stairs would disappear blocking anyone upstairs there and anyone downstairs down. The chime was not a normal chime, it is an odd one (even with the real clock I have). A door would appear where the stairs were and if you went through the door it was like a garden but there were people in it with distorted faces and they stalked around and looked at you. I don't know wether or not they are bad but they may just be stuck there. There is also a well in the middle. I walked back through the house and through the front door and people were infront of the house lined together. Dark spirits were coming near and I felt as though they were my family, and I called to them to come to the house that in here no-one can come in that is evil. I woke up then, and I had many many dreams of that house and different things like that would happen.

I started to talk to my sister last fall, and i was telling her all the weird things that happened, turned out she and her mother and an aunt of ours had all had the same dream, only with other things happening. Her mother and our aunt would just get stuck upstairs, but my sister who also can control herself during her dreams was able to walk around and she told me things that came to her in her dreams. She said she once had a dream where she went to the school to pick up my nephew and she saw a guy in the gym and she knew that it was the anti-christ and she ran to get Jacob (my nephew), and she drove him to the house (the yellow one) and they went inside. She saw the people outside and she told jacob to not leave the house and that she would be back, she went outside to tell the people to come in, and she heard a scream from Jacob and when she went around the house he had came out and the anti-christ was there and beheaded him.

She's had dreams about the people with the distorted faces and the stairs and everything too. She said she once had a dream where she went upstairs and found a spot in the wall that was loose and when she pulled it off there were people stuck in the walls.

When we talked about it and i played the chime for her of the grandfather clock she freaked out knowing it was the chime in the house. Everytime something weird or horrible happened the grandfather clock had chimed. Right after i played it for her, little black bugs that she had never seen before started to crawl accross her room floor. That night she was lying in bed and she felt herself lift up and was dropped on the floor, and she called me immediatly. She lives in indiana and I live in florida, so we always talked on the phone.

I later had a dream where I was in a school and things were pushing me and others towards a thing where it looked like someone was using people as sacrifices, it was the anti-christ. I started to run to get away and I caught up with 3 little girls. A dog was running behind me and we all ran toward a hallway, when we got in the hallway a wall came down behind us and the dog turned and was barking madly while the spirit was getting the wall to let him in, we saw a slot in the wall where it went back to a door. We ran in that section and attempted to open the door but it wouldn't open, well it finally opened and a guy pulled us in, we were petrified and he said i know i was out there too. Thats when I woke up.

I met a guy at my college that we talked and he too had dreamed about the dream, and he said that in his dreams about the house that it was ontop of a bunch of things underground in which people were forming weapons against the spirits. These weapons used words and such of god. He said the entrance was a well that was in the back, and that was when i knew that he had it too. He said that he had a sister that had had the same dreams and that they were part of a group that was finding people with these dreams and joining together knowing that someday it will happen. I told him about my dream where I was in the school and about that guy that saved us, and he started to shake and he said, I had that too, and I was the guy. I got a dog around that time, his name is Iggy and he doesn't bark unless there is something wrong. We determined through remembering our dreams that it was Iggy barking at that spirit. One night, cuz he rode with us to work and slept in the car till we got out, he was in the car and he dreamed that someone (a spirit or something) was trying to get into the car and it finally got in and it told him to stop and it punched him in the stomach and he woke up with the spirit disappearing before him and his stomach hurting. Looking at family pictures he got suddenly scared and said that thats the lady that punched me, it was my aunt the one that had told my sister she'd be next to kill herself and the one that helped my brother donavon kill his-self. That aunt was a devil worshiper.

I was then at a new job and I was talking to someone who has had the same dreams, and he said that he was holding a gun, but bullets didn't come out it was like words or such.

My sister has traced our family back to the salem witch trials and all that. Our grandmother keeps all of our baby books. When my sister was pregnant with Jacob she could make things disappear if she wanted it to really bad.

I've had alot of paranormal situations, and I've had alot of dreams where I later see it happen. I've had alot of the house dreams, and such too. I can feel things from people I know, and I can feel things from people around me. I can sense what they are feeling and inturn I can feel it too. Does anyone have advice on what I've said, or does anyone wanna know a litte more?Please help me, I need advice and I figured this would be the best place to get it

I've been trying to get information in Gaia in a supernatural guild, and I was told to come here. Someone said that I was an empath as well.

Someone also wrote this:

That dream about the 7 chances... it's eerie that he should have said 7 specifically. I've heard that before you are born, your soul gets together with your spirit guides and together you choose 7 \"outs\" in life. 7 chances to leave the world and return to the other side (i.e. die). Then as you live your life you have your 7 pre-selected outs and you choose the one that is the right time for you (not consciously, your soul supposedly knows when it's time and picks the right out for you).

Of course, that's just what I've heard. It seems strange to me that (if that IS true), your 7 outs would have been used up while you are so young. So take it with a grain of salt, it just struck me as quite the eerie coincidence.

oh, and shared dreaming=whoa.[/b]

**Lil Heaven** · 08-09-2005 06:24 AM

I put lucid beginner, because I do not know what I am at

**irishcream** · 08-09-2005 08:17 AM

hey, welcome to the board!
That sounds like a very interesting dream you've had there...the number seven does seem important within the dream, and it also seems important that other members of your close family have had this dream as well.
And congratulations on the dreamsharing, i've been trying to do that for months!
I think if you want more help on interpreting this dream, you could try posting it in the interpretation section, it might get better reads and results in there.
Also for lucid dreaming check out the lucid experiences and attaining lucidity forum, by reading these, it might help you decide where you are at in terms of lucidity, you might be better at it than you think.
Hopefully we'll see you around the board.
Also, if you have any more questions, don't hesitate to PM a dreamguide.

**TheKnife** · 08-09-2005 08:23 AM

Personally, i'd probably pick you as a lucid-oh-my-god...

This is the freakiest event i've ever heard of, you seem to be a born empath and natural lucid dreamer, i don't know anything about dream interpretation(Or whatever its called), so i can'tt help you with all that other...stuff.

**Nirvana Starseed** · 08-09-2005 09:18 AM

This universe is currently evolving around the number 7.
You get many more chances then 7. So I don't know exackly what that is about. But I remember it. With this anoyying dejavu. Maybe you are very lucky to be here, and you must prove that you deserve your oportuning here and not waste it.
I did not read all your post but I read alot of it. Interesting about the dream with the words and the gun. Speaking truth is like a weapon to anyone against it. It is one of the most powerful things. I don't know about any advice i could give u but Welcome to dreamviews.

**Josh_Mac** · 08-09-2005 10:41 AM

wow, do you have msn I would like to speak to you more about this (if you dont mind) and welcome to the forum by the way

**Lil Heaven** · 08-09-2005 04:15 PM

wow so much advice! Thankyou all, yea I have recently tried to find information on what had been going on in my life, and it led me here

I do not have any instant messengers, but I do have email. My email is [email protected] and if you want to talk to me further I would love that. Simply pm me or email me

Thankyou to everyone that helps

**nesgirl119** · 08-09-2005 06:20 PM

Originally posted by Lil Heaven
wow so much advice! Thankyou all, yea I have recently tried to find information on what had been going on in my life, and it led me here

I do not have any instant messengers, but I do have email. My email is [email protected] and if you want to talk to me further I would love that. Simply pm me or email me

Thankyou to everyone that helps

Cool! You're another natural! We need more natural LDers.
Welcome to the forum, BTW!

**Lil Heaven** · 08-09-2005 06:29 PM

thankyou

yea i guess I'm a natural

**nesgirl119** · 08-09-2005 06:31 PM

Originally posted by Lil Heaven
thankyou

yea i guess I'm a natural

You are....but don't worry, you are not alone, b/c there are a few naturals on here!

**Lil Heaven** · 08-09-2005 06:52 PM

so what specifically does that mean though. How is it being natural and not natural?

**nesgirl119** · 08-09-2005 06:54 PM

Originally posted by Lil Heaven
so what specifically does that mean though. How is it being natural and not natural?

It means that you develop LDing w/o needing to have instructions or anything. You just have it! Not natural is someone who needs instructions to LD!

**Fraggin** · 08-09-2005 07:12 PM

Hmm..... So that would mean that I am a natural?
Or is it past history of psychonautical exploration and the use of tribal and cultural ethnobontanicals for the search of my inner-self? (that l later found through therapy btw)

**Joseph_Stalin** · 08-09-2005 07:14 PM

Yes, I believe gothlark is a natural LD-er as well (a damn good one at that). The forum can help you take that ability and fine-tune it (LD-ing), so perhaps you can have a little more control than you currently do.

And Welcome to the Forums!

**OpheliaBlue** · 08-09-2005 07:14 PM

Just because you are new to the forum doesn't necessarily mean you have to choose "lucid beginner." But for you, since you seem to have been doing it all your life, I think one of the higher up ranks is fine. I'd choose Lucid Master, or Lucid God, or oh-my-god or whatever