The path of lucidity

Hi everyone!

I discovered lucid dreaming two years ago, haven't took them seriously for a while, by the way. Well, something about myself and why lucid dreams are important to me:

I'm 18 years old (19 in 4 days!) and I started to study physics at university this September. I aslo started to take psychotherapy sessions because I'm full of social anxiety and paranoia, particularly about my field of study.
Within a month I've discovered a lot about me and my insane relationship with maths and physics (and a lot of other stuff), and so I've decided to drop out school this year to take time to really understand myself and what I want to do in life, while doing a random job just because of money.
I've resumed a lot of course, but that's because I think you're more interested in the part about lucid dreaming :) I usually have one spontaneus (DILD) lucid dream every two weeks, but my ability to control the dream is very low, and so while lucid I just try to discover dark areas of my mind. I actually don't know how to analyze dreams, so I just rely on my intuition.

My lucid dreams have always been very gloomy and dark, in my first ones I was always followed by some sorts of immaterial and invisible beings, this summer I was in a forest and a deep voice said me that I was forcing my self to love physics (and how right it was). In my second-last lucid dream I was lying over a shadow and I asked the dream to show me my real fears, and it showed me I was afraid to be killed. This made me understand that my fears tend to be exagerated, infact for some reasons (maybe genetics) I tend to become too much emotionally involved with little things.
In my last one I tried to have sex, but the dream didn't allowed me. I think that's because I discovered recently that some forms of spirituality I got into where just a compensation system, and so it wouldn't allow me to use dreming as another escape from reality (so no sex actually :chuckle: )

On the other hand lucid dreaming also offered me a way to expierence profound ecstasy: this September I was on the backdrop of a waterstream and I experienced a sort of ego softening. I become one with the water until I was nothing but colorful waves.

Thanks for reading ;)

Welcome to the forums, Synergeon! :welcome:

If you want to have more frequent and consistent lucid dreams then the first peace of advice I'd give you is to start a Dream Journal, or DJ. It's exactly what it sounds like, a journal in which you write down any dreams you had each night. This helps build recall so you can remember your dreams more easily, as well as recognize dream signs (DS, a recurring theme/object in your dreams) which can help you become lucid. It may even give you some more insight into who you are and what's going on in your mind that you may not be aware of.

It sounds like you're aware of some of the induction techniques (DILD) but I still suggest you take a look around the forum at some of the various guides posted and see if any of them spark your interest, or if you just want to learn more about the techniques you're already doing. It's also interesting to read some other people's experiences and thoughts on the subject.

You seem to have a lot on your mind, both mentally and spiritually, and lucid dreaming can help you explore some of yourself that you normally wouldn't get to see, so I guess there's some motivation for you ;). Good luck in your endeavors, and if you have any questions regarding lucid dreaming, feel free to ask either via thread, post, or pm. People here are very happy to help :).

Welcome to Dreamviews!

This is indeed a great place to develop your dreaming skills and meet some awesome people!

Make sure to check out the Induction Methods and Techniques as it will help you a ton :)

Also, do not miss the following!

• Attaining Lucidity -------------------------> Many techniques here as well as users sharing their own experience.
  
• Tasks of the Month & Year ---------------> This will give you a great motivation to LD as these tasks are fun and gives you a reward for accomplishing them (and that will be an extra goal to help yourself to LD!)
  
• Lucid Dares ------------------------------->This thread has a ton of lucid tasks for you to do. I have been personally adding some basic tasks to get started plus other some advanced tasks as well. Many other users are adding dares for everyone as well as making personal dares, it is lots of fun.

Best luck and let me know if you got any questions :)

Thank you Burke and PercyLucid ;)

I will open a DJ tomorrow, by the way until a month or so ago I've kept a paper one.
Also I already know a few other techniques, but I prefer DILD over everything else. I also take advantage of random night waking up to try WBTB, and I've decided to start to train in ADA.

Best luck :)

Having a DJ and getting people to read it is a high motivation to improve recall.