As far back as I can remember ive always had trouble falling asleep....I could lay in bed for hours just trying to turn my internal dialogue off so I could drift off to sleep. I have 'Initial Insomnia' and its really been a problem, but here recently I figured out that if I try to imagine what I want to dream about and ONLY imagine that - I find sleep alot faster than I used to. I started journaling and really started to actually pay attention to my dreams...I love it!! Why have I not been doing this all along? Well a few nights ago I think I had a Lucid Dream - I know I did - The first one for me...that i can recall.

The dream:
Im a 18 again (26 in reality) and I was at the mall with my 'then' boyfriend L. -a first love you might say-. We sat down at a table in the food court. I began to clean out my purse (?) and in the bottom I found rose bush stems. I looked up at L. sitting next to me and then realized I was dreaming. I was in shock to begin with then it dawned on me that I could do anything I wanted to and get away with it. Looking at him I say "I love you and I never stopped loving you. Im sorry if I ever hurt you." He is at a loss and is puzzled by my outburst so Im thinking to myself I just need to tell him that im dreaming. When I open my mouth to speak.....I woke up.

All I could think was ' WOW....what the hell was that???'
I began to research via web and came across the term Lucid Dreaming.
Googled "Lucid Dreaming" and it brought me here.

So I say "hello" to everyone!!
-Starlite