Okay...The whole dream journal isn't working out, really. This is my second day (perhaps I'm impatent, but I'm really trying) recording my dreams, and I've got nothing. It's as if I don't exist when I'm asleep. I literally don't have any clue as to where my mind is when I'm asleep. Sure, I've got bits a pieces of dreams,that don't really make sense, but that's all really. Also, when I wake up, I dunno if I'm dreaming or not...For example, everytime I first wake up, the first thing I do is reach for my journal...I see my journal, feel it in my hands, know that I'm writing, but it sort of feels like a movie...So I dunno what to believe. This morning my dad woke me up to warn me about the weather (it snowed). I'm not sure if I was awake or not when he said this, though I was out of bed and I proceeded to do all my normal events that eventually led up to me typing this post (so I guess you could say I dunno if I'm awake or not at the moment, either)...
Here's what I wrote in my journal for my two entries...It's not much, but someone tell me...Am I improving?
"Entry one:
I honestly don't remember anything at all during sleep. Before sleep, I noticed my thought patterns changing, and compared to rational thinking...I know I wasn't. I witnessed REM consciously. I suppose to some extent that's a lucid dream, though not quite sure"
Then later on in the evening I wrote this (I don't even remember writing this)
"An oriental stuardess takes (illedgible words..too sloppy to make out) belief in my ability to recall dreams, and has my thoughts, or "luggage" sent away to ?, my room perhaps?"
Weird, I know...
"Entry two:
I asked this dude if he had some sort of fetish (I remembered what it was before I woke up, but I forgot as soon as I tried remembering...the fetish, I mean). We were in a park near some bleachers?"
Yeah..those are my two entries.
I've been repeating to myself constantly before bed this little phrase: "I will remember my dreams, and they will be completely lucid and vivid to me when I wake up" So far, hasn't worked really, other than what I've accumulated from those dream journal entries...
Suggestions, advice, anyone?
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