Hi, my name is Megan and I just found this site. It's very interesting. At any rate, I'm 39 years old and have been lucid dreaming since childhood. The very first lucid dream I had was when I was probably around 9 years old. I've never tried to have one, I just happen to have them from time to time. My question has to do with a dream I had 2 nights ago. I dreamed that I was floating. It was a wonderful feeling and for some reason in my dream I felt so light and I'm not only talking about my body feeling light. My whole spirit, my attitude, everything about me felt so light and carefree. It was a wonderful feeling. At any rate, I have dreamed of floating before, but this was different. I would float upwards and then I'd go over to a brick wall and pass through it, pass through the wall. I felt as if I were a spirit and I could go through walls and such. It was if I could actually feel myself pushing against the wall until my spirit would just slip right through it. It was the greatest feeling ever. Once I tried to go through the wall and couldn't press through. It was as if I could feel the cheek of my face pressing against the hard brick, but couldn't go any further. I believe that I was about to wake up when I realized that I couldn't stand to lose that wonderful feeling and I began to try my hardest to press on through the wall and I did. I went right on through it again. It was great. My dreams lately have been very spiritual too.

I have panic attacks from time to time. And it's like I can't even escape the fear of having a panic attack in my dreams. I will dream that I'm far away from home and I begin to fear having a panic attack. That's the only yucky part of my dreams, the not being able to escape the fear.

Last night I dreamed that my husband and I went somewhere and we got lost from each other. This made me feel as if I were about to have a panic attack. I don't ever actually have a full blown panic attack in my dreams, but the fear of the attack is always there. Anyway, he finally showed back up and while we were standing around, 2 ladies appeared and began to sing the most beautiful gospel type music. It was just so beautiful. The ladies were very spiritual and I began rejoicing right along with them while they sang, I didn't care what anyone thought of me. The phone rang and awoke me from the dream. It was so wonderful when those ladies were singing, I was very sorrowful that the phone call woke me up.

Well, it's great to be here and I'm glad that I finally found somewhere that I could come and discuss all of this without fear of being thought crazy. I've talked to a few people about my dreams, but no one can really relate. Hope someone here has some suggestions or thoughts on all of this. Thanks for your help