Hi, I can't believe there's people out there actually talking about this and taking it seriously. I've played around with my dreams like this all my life- well I should say, all my childhood, I haven't given it much thought recently. I would very often realise I was dreaming, and turn to someone and say, "Guess what, I've just realised this is a dream, because --- just happened. Then I'd suggest to who ever was around me that we make the most of it by trying to fly, etc. One big indicator to me was if I ever dreamed that I'd killed someone or done something else that I would never do. First I'd be overcome with shame and self-hate, then reality would dawn, and I'd realise, "I would never do that! This must be a dream!" Then I'd make an attempt to re-write it so that it would end differently, but I'd have to work fast, because as soon as I would try and change how a dream ended, I'd feel myself slipping away. Many times when I felt myself slipping out of the dream-world, I knew I was going back to reality, and was able to say goodbye to those around me, and try to fix just one last thing before I left. Also, the false- waking. I suffered from it almost my entire childhood. I would dream I got out of bed, had breakfast, tidied my room, etc, when really I was still asleep. Then suddenly I hear my mother's voice telling me to wake up, and I think, "Why is she saying that to me when I'm sitting at the kitchen table?" Then I would wake up in bed, and sometimes that would be a false awakening too! I'm sure I've had as many as three or four opening upon themselves! I finally, when I heard my mother's voice in the morning would throw my head upwards as hard as I could so it would bang on the bed-head and jolt me back into reality. It was the only way I could escape from the dream-world! I also experienced on occasion people from my dream world following me into reality! I remember one very real dream, where I woke up after running away from someone bad. I woke up, sat up, looked around me, then felt (the bad guy) pull me back down into bed by the collar of my night-gown, and I was right back in the dream world with him towering over me and saying, "You thought you could try and escape by waking up!" Perhaps you would say I was asleep the whole time, but I felt very sure that I did awake, sit up, and get pulled back. Anyway, this site is very interesting. As a mother, I no longer think about my dreams much. I've learned to be a light sleeper in case my three-year old should need me in the night, and I'm usually thinking as I sleep about how many hours of sleep I'm getting, and what time I need to wake up. I'm going to be thinking about my dreams tonight though, and using the journal. Thanks for putting what I thought was my own unique weirdness into words and creating a site for us lucid dreamers! |
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