Ok this is my first post so let me just let you guys know now im serious im not just doing this for kicks.....anyways im 21 M im in the military and well leave it at that....

Ive been experiencing something very strange when i go to sleep. Its not a dream, well at least i dont think it is. Basically right before i fall asleep my body becomes paralyzed. Its almost like my body is asleep but inside my mind is fully awake. I can feel it coming on and the only way to stop it is to jolt myself awake. I cant move in anyway, however i feel like i can move my toes and nothing else. Also in the past when i knew someone was next to me i tried to yell, i couldnt yell but i could almost hum loudly. While im laying down i feel like a tight pressure in my head and i start to feel extremely heavy. At that point i always jolt myself awake before i go any further. Usually in the past i would jolt myself to wake up and change positions, and then it wouldnt happen again, for some reason i believed this happens more when im laying on my back, anyways today i felt like no matter what position i was in i couldnt move and even after i jolted myself awake my body was still extremely heavy like i was extremely weak. I could barely open my eyelids. It basically is freaking me out because i am worried i have a sleep disorder. If i go to medical i would probably be discharged because thats their policy on sleeping disorders.
I feel like the longer i wait in this state the less control i have of jolting myself out of it, this is why i immedietly jolt myself awake the moment i feel the symptoms starting. Also when this does happen and i jolt myself to wake up and change positions and do fall asleep i always have very intense dreams. Its always of past situations in my life whether i when i was a child or even more recent. Its always intense dreams and sometimes when i wake up ill have been crying if it was a sad dream. Sometimes its about people i havent seen in years and theyll show up in my dreams. Its very strange. Some are sad some ill end up dying, some are even good dreams, but i only dream when this happens. I just did some recent looking around on the internet and i found some weird websites. One site said it was my inner self or spirit or sumthin trying to travel. I read some things that said i could leave my body and travel around, but this is something i definetly do not want to explore, although the thought seems kind of cool. The things they described were all things i felt and it did feel as if what they described as my spirit or whatever i would have described as my mind. but it did feel seperated from my body. I dont really know what im asking for but i would definetly like to hear if you guys have heard about this and if its something serious. Id hate to fall into the state and not be able to come out, thats my worst fear. Oh another thing i was thinking is if thats what people feel like when they are in a coma. just a lot of things are running through my head. Anyways any advice would be gratly appreciated.....thanks


Lorenzo