I'm still not certain as to how much I want to pursue LDs, wether I want to commit fully or not. I read the entire site yesterday, along with alot of the forums. I started doing RCs, and self suggestion pretty much all day. As I got closer to going to bed (around 2:20 AM, my usual bedtime), I started feeling pretty anxious about LDing, because I was very convinced it would happen that night. I dunno why I got anxious, but I just did. LDing sounds like a friggin awesome thing, and I want to do it, but as I layed down in bed and turned off the light I found myself anticipating it alot.

So I just tried to get comfortable, closed my eyes, and concentrated on the noise of my fan. Now it usually takes me awhile to fall asleep, probably around half an hour. I don't know why, it's just always been that way. I think my mind is just active. But as I dozed off, I fell into the period between sleep and consciousness, and started having little dreams. I could feel myself in the waking world, in my bed, I could hear my breathing, although I lost the sound of the fan. The "dream" that I had, while only very slightly dozing off, was very short. It was just of this fat latino looking guy being held back by 2 or 3 other guys. And then, I guess do to the anticipation, I was like 'whoa' and I woke back up completely.

Now this happened like 3 or 4 times before I completely fall asleep, with a few other "mini-dreams". And each time I was on the brink of falling asleep, I could sort of feel it happening, sort of a feeling of falling, or maybe ascending, I dunno. Anyways, that feeling woke me up. Throughout the night I'd return to the half awake state, and there'd be dreams I remembered having while I was completely asleep. Now, I can't really remember what they were. I don't think I LD'ed, and if I did I definately don't remember it. So based on all these events, do you guys think it will be easy for me to LD once I have deicent dream recall? Or will my overactive mind give me more nights like this?