I don't know where to begin. Let me say this much - I have been reading your web site for quite some time now and am very familar with your terms. Before I read this web site I never new what I was doing in my childhood was called lucid dreaming. When I approached alot of people with what was going on with me they just laughed at me or thought I was making it up.
I have so much to say but don't want to bore you with all the details of my life.
I remember when I was about eight years old I began to wake up in my dreams and begin to manipulate them into whatever I wanted. I remember being able to fly and visit far away places that I only could find in books or some of my favorite tv shows. I could do AnYTHING. This went on for several years.
And then one night it happened. (it's so incredible I remember the dream in such vivid detail many years later - I'm 37 years old now) I entered a cage with a lion. All I had to do was pry back the bars with my fingers to get into the cage. In a moment the lion leap forward to grab me and all I had to do was wave my hand in front of him and he turned into a kitten.
I picked up the cute kitty and began to stroke his fur. It's incredible how vivid lucid dreams are, I was realizing how I could feel actual fur when I looked to my left and noticed a brick wall that was not there when I entered the cage. Being the supreme being in my dreams I always was I began to knock the wall down. This brick wall however was a bit stubborn. But I finnally got it down and I noticed a dark room that I crawled into.
The moment I enterd the room a chill engulfed my entire body. In a instant I was surrouned by blackness, the very hole I crawled in from was now gone.
The only light that was begining to form came directly in front of me as what seemed like gaint floating heads approached me. I don't remember what exactly they said to me alot of it I assume went right over my adolecent head. but this I do remember they told me that if I didn't stop controlling my dreams my mind would go crazy and I would end up in an Insane asylum. I kept tring to wake up even screaming to the top of my lungs "I WANT TO WAKE UP" but the floating heads just kept on talking and telling me that I was to put a stop to all my dream controlling. I hated this feeling of not being able to controll my dreams. They told me that they would revisit me again.
I tried talking about this with several people like my brothers and friends but like I said they either laughed at me or thought I was making the whole thing up. For days I didn't go to sleep. My mother and father were very concerned about me getting sleep, they saw the bags under my eyes and knew I wasn't sleeping. I think it was almost three days of being up before I just fell into a hard sleep and when I woke I didn't remember dreaming.
I was very scared and forced myself to not control my dreams. And after a few years I just said I guess I was crazy, for a little while there I questioned whether I actually controlled my dreams or not. Every once in awhlie I would think back and wonder. But all that changed few days ago when out of curiosity I did a search on the web about controlling dreams and I stubbled across your web site.
All those years ago what I was doing was REAL and it is achievable. And I believe it is very possible that I can get right back into it. I don't want to continue babbling but I just want the person who is responsible for this web site to know that I appreciate them. I feel so overjoyed that a new begining is about to be released. And to all the people who are just checking this out and are not sure let me tell you a voice from the past is crying - little eight year old kid is yelling at the top of his lungs saying I't REAL you can do this!
Oh and as for those four floating heads that said they will be back, well I'm not a scared little kid anymore and besides that I have a great new family in these forums to help me cope and get along.