Hi everyone.

It is so awesome that this forum exists. Just today, while at work, i learned more about lucid dreaming. after reading some of the methods of attaining an LD, i realized that I may have been on the verge of having an LD my whole freaking life! :p

Thing is, every since I could remember, I would have sleep paralysis. I always thought (and still do actually) that this was a very scary experience for me. I would lie there, feel a pressure around my head, my body would go numb, and I would feel like I was falling backwards.

This frightened me, so I would start breathing rapidy, since i felt that that was the only thing that I could control, and force my body to move. I eventually my body would jerk at the direction I was trying to move, and I'd wake up.

Am I experiencing SP? or something else? Am i close to WILD? I really REALLY want to experience an LD but I afraid something may happen to me if I continue to "fall" all the way during SP. It feels very foreboding and I panic. Do you guys have any tips?

Also, occasionally, I feel like after trying to snap out of SP, I get up out of my bed, but I feel like everything is really slow and heavy. My vision is sometimes fuzzy, as well as my hearing. Sometimes I feel like I'm talking to someone.

Just yesterday, I had episodes of sleep paralysis when I came home from work and took a nap since I was so exhausted. I was lying beside my girlfriend, and when I felt I was starting to go into SP, I remember looking over to my girlfriend, and panicked because I couldnt say anything. I forced myself out of SP, and I aked my gf if she saw me look at her, and she said she did. So im guessing its not all in my head? I had several more encounters of heading into SP that afternoon, but as usual, i forced myself to snap out of it.

Sorry for such a long post, Im just really excited to learn about this phenomenon thats been happening to me nearly my whole life, and its good to know that it may actually not be a bad thing.