subconscious, psychoanalysis and dreams
hey i'm new.
i recently started having hypno therapy and my therapist who is also a powerful reiki healer asked me to remember something quite painful. i remembered my 21st birthday party. i was living in a 3 room basement apt. at the time with 7 other people and it was a pretty chaotic place to live. at the party were other friends and some people were on mushrooms. i was absolutely wasted on buckfast, a tonic wine that is about 1/3 alcohol, 1/3 caffene and 1/3 sugar. it makes me violent and angry. i remembered that my friend who was on mushies broke my coffee maker. i stomped on the broken glass in my bare feet and ran from the apartment down a lane. while i was in the land i began weeping and had the most empty, desperate feeling. i was crying for my mother who had died 6 years previously when i was 15. i wanted to know why she left me.
during the hypnosis, my therapist asked me to imagine that my mother was in the lane with me and to ask her whatever i wanted to know. i asked her the question and she answered.
after the session, my therapist told me that my mother would come to me in a dream and that she had a present she wanted to give me. the therapist said that that message had come from my mother and that she had felt my mother's energy in the room during the session.
i went home and began keeping my dream diary. three nights after the therapy i had sleep paralysis. i've been having it since i was 12 and a few times i have had lucid dreaming triggered by dream signals, usually electricity, like a fuse board or an electric shock. every time i become lucid it soon becomes paralysis.
i'm wondering if anyone could help me. i think this is my mother telling me to face my fears. if i can face the demons of sleep paralysis maybe i can get some answers and recieve the gift from my mother?? any help would be greatly appreciated!! thanks.
