Now that I can sleep to begin with...

[DeeryTheDeer]

Hi everyone, I just joined because I'm very interested in perfecting my skill in lucid dreaming. As an artist and a perfectionist who wants to push myself to the absolute limit, I've always believed that my best imaginative potential has existed in my dreams. So there's my main reason why I'm so interested. When I was a kid, I had many lucid dreams. In most of them, the very first thing I wanted to do was wake up. I was uncomfortable and scared I guess, but as soon as I woke up I'd regret that I didn't think to go to Disneyland or something. One time I was actually successful, though. I was at a family get-together type party when I suddenly became lucid, then decided this situation was boring and I wanted to wake up. I focused on imagining, from the fence in front of me several yards away, a huge scary rhinoceros charging right towards me, and this would scare me into waking up. Sure enough, the rhino did come at me, and I woke up. Granted, I think I focused too hard and the rhino seemed a little too imagined and day-dream like. And not that scary, since I was expecting it. I would have liked for it to seem more real, but it did the trick anyway. I never lucid dreamed after puberty, though, and now that I'm 18 I want to take this more seriously and start lucid dreaming again. This time I have to really work for it, though. Only with the help of a binaural beat mp3 for lucid dreaming have I been able to have two lucid dreams recently, one last night. In both of them, though, I have become aware and excited but have completely failed at trying to make anything around me change, and I think I even made the dream fade a little. I think I'm suffering from the same rhino syndrome- nothing I attempt to imagine seems real like the existing dream. It's like the dream is reality and I'm only capable of imagining a different world. I'm practicing on improving that. Hopefully tonight I'll have another lucid dream. Cheers.