This is my first time joining a dream forum.

[cm1star]

I have been thinking about joining a dream forum for quite a while. I have even looked them up online before, but I get really put off by all this psychic stuff and interpretation mumbo jumbo. I realize that might come off as sounding slightly arrogant (and I realize that many people invest quite a part of their life into what I consider "mumbo jumbo"; and I realize such people will be highly offended with my opinion), which I why I didn't join a forum before. However, I just have to speak with someone, even if it's just for the sake of being able to get a few things off my chest. If I have to post for 12 months and even find ONE person that says ONE thing that will give me ANY insight into ANYTHING I say, I'll be more grateful and appreciative than you could possibly understand. I realize that I may be wrong about interpretations being "mumbo jumbo" (as I am not utterly arrogant), but I am very truthful with how I present my words and views. I don't mix words or butter them. Truth is, I am frustrated; I am frustrated that I don't think anyone can provide any insight -- but I guess it's worth a stab in the dark to join a forum such as this. So here I am. Basically, when I go to sleep, it's like being in an IMAX theater. I often joke that "I need to wake up to have a rest", as though my dream life is actually more exhausting than my real life. I just don't believe the dreams I am having are coming from thoughts or influences in my life as people (and would be interpreters might) suggest. I've looked up dreams before, and dream interpretations, etc.. and I'm just not impressed with what I have found. I don't want to make myself out to be more intelligent than anyone else, but I am not a dolt. I just find many people's explanations and rhetoric to be rather, well "cute" -- but unhelpful. I am not trying to be sarcastic. Again, please allow me to be open and honest. I don't know how else to say what I am saying. I've been deliberating for years, and I am posting reluctantly - even now. What I am typing now is the product of years of rehearsal in my head. How can I find out what's going on in my head? Is there any other person that might be able to help? I don't consider too many people to have any more intelligence or insight than myself. We're all human on this planet, and I don't think anyone has access to anything that I don't. Anyway, enough with the stalling. Basically, here's the deal -- for what it's worth.. (stalls..), I don't even know now I will describe it.. (sits and thinks).. Ok here it is.. I am dreaming of places that I have never been to. This might not sound over dramatic, but the intricate detail of these dreams is mind blowing. I'm not talking one or two dreams. I am talking dreams since I was a toddler. And it's not just dreams.. there's so much more.. It's hard to know where to start. I guess I'll just have to type the main points here and get into other stuff as time progresses; assuming that I actually make another post.. I am convinced that I am dreaming of lives through other people's eyes. I am dreaming of countries that I have never been to. The dreams are EXTRAORDINARY in detail. They are also recurring. The settings are recurring. edit: Actually, I have even had that are not on this earth. Recently I had a dream that I was trying to navigate a space ship through galaxies, and I distinctly remember having a hard time trying to remember my way back. I have also had dreams where I am not on this earth, but in some other place. I hate to say it, but the places seem "alien". (ok, call the white coats). In the dreams I have in other countries, I don't know the people. I don't know the places. Yet in the dreams I do. I am quite familiar. I often wake up knowing things that I KNOW I do (or DID) not know. Don't try telling me that my subconscious mind picks things up during my waking life and somehow it all comes to light in my dreams. I assure you that's not the case, because there are just too many things, too many details and too many intricacies. It's not uncommon that I have to wake up and look up the names of places, or words that I don't know what they mean. I also dream of places that just don't seem like they are in this time. They really do seem as though they are in the future. Not far away, but I just get the feeling that they're five or ten years ahead of "this" time. I could honestly write a book on all the dreams I have had, which I believe are not set in this time. edit: I can describe the places "intimately". But the thing that really gets me; the think that is most hard to explain (and I'll probably mess the explanation up here); is that well, there's no English word for it, that I am aware of.. In my dreams I have a certain "outlook". It is like a persona of my surroundings. But this persona is not mine. I know it isn't. See, I don't know much about how other people work (and I don't buy into all this psychic stuff), but when I am in certain places, I get a certain feel. A persona. I am not talking about dreaming right now (sorry, I am just trying to explain -- please bare with me).. I don't want to call it a "vibe".. but well.. let me stop and put it another way.. ..have you ever wondered what it would be like to be inside someone else's body? Like, to see how THEY see the world? To experience the persona that another person might feel? I don't know how to explain it. I am getting frustrated and I feel like just closing this browser and forgetting about it, but I will try to continue.. Back to the dreams.. (assuming that you have SOME idea of what I mean by "outlook" and "persona"), when I dream, that persona is not mine. I know it isn't.. OH - I GOT IT! Let me explain this way! Is there a place that you spent a LOT of time in during your life but haven't been to for a while? Maybe a place where you grew up as a child? Maybe you haven't been there for 10 years? But if you return to that place, something just "smells" familiar. Not with your nose, but with your feelings? You know that familiarity? Well I hope you know what I mean. That is what I am talking about. That is what I feel in my dreams! See, when I account for the fact that I KNOW that I have never been to the places that I am dreaming about, but I have that familiar "outlook" and "persona" in my dreams, with not only places but also people; it is really.. well, what's the word.. frustration isn't quite the word. It's like maybe intrigued? But frustrated that I can't work out how I know all these people and places? It doesn't stop there either. See, (and I am getting really trippy now, but I may as well just spill my guts while I am here).. I'll just go right back to when I was a kid; even a toddler. There's something not quite right with me; but I've never been able to work out why because I have no one to talk to. I have no one that understands. So I've just kept all this stuff bottled up all these years, and the few people that I have told just laugh at me; so that just makes me close up even more. Ok, well.. um.. I've seen spirits. I have memories of places that I'd never been to in my life. When I was very young, I remember asking my mother what a "human being" was. I was 3 years old. I still remember clearly. Why did I ask what a "human being" was? I know the spirit world exists, because (please don't call me crazy, or a liar - I will never post here again, I swear).. I saw the spirits when I was a kid. It stopped after a while, because I blocked it out. There's so much more.. I just don't know where to start. I am all over the place here. I see things from the future. I often wake up in the middle of the night with my room lit up blue and I am shaking and vibrating and I can hear high pitched noises and sounds. That's a whole other story. A very long story. I have hundreds of thousands of images in my head. It's like I have had 100 people's lives, from all overt the planet directly uploaded into my head. There's so much more.. I know everything I typed here, for anyone to read it, it looks like I am just mental. But I am not. Please understand.. What ever.. I regret posting this already, and now I am upset.. I'll just sign off here.. Maybe, just maybe, some day one person will understand what I wrote here and contact me.. Truth is, I am having a hard time coping with it all.. Please (and don't take this the wrong way).. don't reply with mumbo jumbo, you'll just p*$$ me off. You don't know how it feels to live this life and have someone replying to you with fantasy stories because it all sounds "cool" to them. Although I already know that's what I am going to get.. Anyway, I'm gone.. I made the post.. I'll just get on with my life.. I apologize for this mess in advance. It was typed with great difficulty. Edit: I just edited this post to correct spelling.. I think what I would like, is for people not to tell me what they think (no offense, but I will likely not care about what you think too much). I would prefer people just ask questions and I'll answer them. I didn't make this post for your entertainment (sorry). I made it to help myself. I think that maybe if people ask me questions, then maybe they will be questions that I wouldn't have asked myself. This might help. How? I don't know. All I know is that this whole situation is affecting me deeply, and the more I try and ignore it all, the more frustrated I feel -- like I am going to explode. I need to sort it out somehow.

[ClouD]

Endless responses. You will not find what you are looking for. Welcome to the next rut.

[cm1star]

You're right. Goodbye.

[ClouD]

Where are you going?

[no-Name]

awwww, that was painfully pessimistic...

[ClouD]

Hide and seek.

[Blakesawake]

The Spirit does travel when the body is asleep. You have probally lived more lives than you would believe. We are here to learn Love. Just learn it and do it right this time so you can dwell with the source for eternity in peace, joy, and Love with all wisdom and knowledge of everything flowing through you. Do Good