Rant: I’m not understanding why some co-workers get all dramatic over one co-worker not getting a job done. If you wanted to delegate, and know they’re the type of person to rush because they want to leave early only for you to do double work, then just get the job done yourself. But when I offer to help, as I’m presuming this is what the job entails, and you tell me that we need to delegate, and I see you doing the same act that you want to delegate, I’m going to think you’re either being nonsensical and idiotic, or just hypocritical.
I understand that certain shifts make you melancholic and shit, but it doesn’t have to be that way when you realize that literally all of the duties are easy when you delegate other tasks that are manageable at whatever disposition the person is at, and you take care of the ones that need detailing no matter the circumstance. Before, I would knock out all of these things easily, but when people start thinking they’re special snowflakes creating double standards, and what have you, you’re just over-complicating things. Sometimes, it’s best to just be blunt and upfront with them to make them aware of this hypocrisy they’re causing. Everyone wants to do a good job, and everyone wants to ensure that all shifts get a good start. Stop patronizing others that want to get the job done by asking them who ends up having to do all of them either way. If you weren’t so stuck up and took so much pride in being a lone wolf, this job would be much easier for you.
Rave: That commission for an in-game model, or rather someone’s fantasy, I should say, seems to be easier than I thought. I asked them if there’s a polygon limit, especially since they’re treating it as an in-game mesh, which would probably be 3-5k polys if we’re not talking about mobile games. They gave me a limit of 10-20k, which is just simply unheard of. Unheard of because that doesn’t constitute low-poly unless we’re talking next-gen. I’m not going to complain, as that’s a shitload of polys to be working with. I have a feeling that if I satisfy them with one model, they’ll probably ask for more. If so, then my body is not ready for this.
Even if it may be the only commission in a long time that I’ll get, it’s something, as I can’t think of any other way where you can get someone to shove you money in the hundreds to do something you do to put you to sleep/ as a hobby. I’m glad that those shitty models I did before helped me somewhere, but I just have a feeling that I’m still doing something wrong either way. But, I guess that’s what happens when you’re hard on yourself, but I wouldn’t have it any other way.
I’m fueled up with salted caramel cocoa and a pack of crackers with peanut butter. Time to practice on other stuff while I wait for them to make the final decision before I make the model.
I really need to take the time someday to personally message those 3d modelers, artists, and such that helped me get this far, even though the future may not be that optimistic in that regard.