So yeah my girlfriend broke up with my on Tuesday via text message. :( It's been really hard for me the past few days, like I don't think I've ever felt this down before. It just seems like I can't stop crying, because now I'm all alone again. And in those 5 months we were together, I've NEVER felt lonely. But now this loneliness is really hard for me to handle.
She said she still wanted to talk properly face to face somewhere next week. So there's still a chance we might get back together but I don't know.
Honestly I miss her so much, but lately all she does is get mad at me for the most stupid things. She's literally pushing me away.
We were supposed to go to prom together and also to a concert on the first of July. But of course she wasn't up for it anymore so she ditched me.
And we were also going to this festival next weekend and I was supposed to be driving. And when I told her I didn't wanna go anymore, she completely lost it. Like she said:
"We arranged it this way, and you should just drive us there, sometimes in life you have to do things you don't feel like doing" like honestly what the fuck?? I told her I didn't want to go anymore because this break up is really hard for me but apparently it was my responsibility so I still have to do it. And her friends were also angry at me so I don't see the point anymore in me going with them. I'm pretty sure they just want a ride :/. And now they're all being extremely nice again, asking me if I changed my mind yet but I don't know what to do.
I didn't even feel like driving in the first place since the festival is in a foreign country and I don't have that much experience with driving. So if I still decide to go, I'd let my dad drive but then there won't be a seat anymore for her best friend. Only for me, my best friend + his girlfriend and my "ex"girlfriend? So that'll cause troubles as well. Like I still wanna go and see these bands but it would be a lot easier if I'd just stay home? :(