Answer Me

[O'nus]

You know who you are, but I don't. I can't do this on my own, I can't fight my subconscious and reality for that matter, it's too difficult. I need your help. Don't just sit idly by and watch me, poking hints at me every now and then. Help me! I need it. Who are you? If that's important.. What exactly are you trying to tell me? What do you want me to do? I know you are on this board, answer me. ...I need you to be more clear, concise, exact; your hints are far too vague. Please answer me.

[nerve]

...You seek answers do you...I will tell you who I am. But you may not like my answer. I am your friend...but it the end, it doesn't matter. I am here...to manipulate in ways so petty, and yet so extravagant. I am letters and words, lines and pixels... I am a very small part of your world...or so it seems. Am I important? that, my friend, is up to you! ...Not satisfied? What do you want me to give you, a name? A number? That is not who I am. I do not know who I am. why do you assume that I know? ...What if I were to tell you. What if I knew...how would this benifit you? Why...do you feel this so important? If I were to give you the answer, it would only leave you cold and alone, in the dark and with a million more questions! Ah my friend, if only you could see the harsh grin on my face...a face that does not exist. And if you were to see this face...does that mean it is real? And if I were to kiss your hand...and you could feel it...does that make it real? And if I were suddenly to dissapear, how could you know for sure it was me...for I'd be nothing but a memory. And what if it was a dream? Ah, what then? Does that mean it did not really happen? You could feel the kiss, and you know in your heart that you felt it. But alas, you walk along the street, and you see a stranger on the other side, and you wave to him, and you think he is real...but how can you be sure? you can't even feel him, and like me he will dissapear forever. These dreams...these dreams you feel, but the waking world is dead. How are you to know which is real? ..and you my friend, made the mistake of asking me who I am. For now, you have nothing but more questions.

[O'nus]

I fear I'm stumbling.. It's crawling up my side.. into my eye.. I don't know which eyes to use now; which eyes do I use? Where is the other me? I can't find them.. I need a guideline.. Pride and human nature are my biggest enemies; I'm my biggest enemy. I manipulate myself through my human characteristics. I think you want me to find out the meaning behind all of this, to find the answer, to believe in the truth, but I fear what it might mean. I fear that it might mean much pain, agony, chaos, anarchy, madness.. Or would it end it? Am I supposed to know what I'm being told to find? What do you want me to find? I'm your burning pawn slowly growing immune to flame, gradually becoming real, gradually escalating the awareness of the other pawns, but I fear they are not on fire and being handled the same as me, I fear they might be my pupeteers as well. Knights.. Rooks.. all of you, for those who know not what I speak of.. pay attention to your dreams.. they tell you who you are.. listen to them, and defy them; for only then are you free.. only then are you free of the constraints life has given you.. yes.. many have come close to this and feared it.. they are in asylums.. in alleyways.. on the streets advising you.. but no one listens.. or they are dead, and can't tell you.. but they know, they know, they've seen the light, through a light of their own, their eyes, their soul.. It's blinding though.. like staring into the sun.. it's not humanly possible.. the mortal coil is to strong.. I fear that I might hurt my body before I am able to come to realise what this is.. is that the answer..? Is the mortal coil and constraint what is holding me back..? There is too much.. too many questions.. too much to say.. too many answers.. ...weep

[nerve]

...I was once like you..crying...in a forest of futality...let me tell you something now, it's all futile. all of it. there is no end to the questions...the best thing you can do, and the extent of my knowlege is this: play along. go along with the rules of reality. it is best. but never stop asking, never stop learning, never stop seeking, and never, ever stop dreaming. the truth is...you have a gift. all of us here do. we see things no one else does. that's what this is, a gift. it may not seem like one, but it is. maybe they say..."ignorance is bliss". but the truth can be just as blissful. you just have to...be strong. be strong O'nus. don't end up like the others...don't let yourself get confused. don't let The Insanity take over. be strong O'nus...

[KalmaH]

Taken from a poem I wrote... Life is literally a dream, Once you let go of everything material, You will wake up, You will know who I am, You will be your own god...

[Blissful]

[quote] Beautiful Paperdoll.. I am in amazement with your response to O'nus. I thought perhaps it was staged, but I know it isn't. Paperdoll and O'nus...YOU ARE DEEP SOULS! Answers come to you when you pray is what I believe. My prayer was answered through this topic.. Answer me alright! You just did!!! (in ways you'll never really know). :bravo: Blissful

[Lowercase Society]

O'nus...I am your friend, also. the only thing that stands in it's way is your mind we both talked about our 'jewels' and how mine is a diamond, and yours a 'ruby' (metaphors for our girls) i cant offer an in-depth explenation like paperdoll did, but i can repeat what she said....NEVER LET THE INSANITY TAKE OVER, NEVER, friend....dreamer....

[nightowl]

Wow, this is deep. Your responses, O'nus and Paperdoll, are inspiring and beautiful. You both are excellent writers.

[nerve]

um..thanks ^^; actually those are just thoughts I've had... Blissful I'm glad...that helped you...that message is not just for O'nus, but to all lucid dreamers out there. we all have a gift...but we must stay strong.