Am I getting Insomnia?

[Jdeadevil]

I seem to be going to bed so late at night it's exremely early in the morning. Surely you people must of seen me never going offline, it's like DV is literally the only site I bothor visiting all the time in my spare time. And when I'm off college I have all day spare time, so I'm on here all the time. Can someone tell me how to get motivated to going to bed? I mean, I'm tired and bored as hell it's that late at night now (6:18 am). Last night I started scaring myself with the fear of that picture I posted in Beyond Dreaming (it was moved there by Oneironaut by kind-of request), so I had a bit of a tough time with sleeping. And I got up at 3:00 pm. It's upsetting me that I have no life and this is literally all I do on days off, why coudn't I grow up with friends and why did my parants have to be so protective? "Don't go outside, you might get lost", that's the idea they gave me when I was little, every time I mensioned it. But now I'm just living with my dad and he's like "Go on then" pointing to the door. My two brothers and my mum live somewhere else so I can't really ask them for company, I could even meet someone in town or something just wondering around town, I could even meet my future girlfriend. It's just now I feel it's pointless and unmeaningful for me to go out. And my dad would probably try and pretend and I go out everyday and go "Well be back by..." or just plainly come and look for me. He's not the best of "This is the world" people. I fucking hated how I was brought up. I have a thing called "Occular Motar Dyspraxia" which hardly does anything. Just makes me have less atributes, speed for example. It doesn't do much though so don't go thinking I'm on of those disabled/mutated people. It doesn't change my appearance or Knowledge in any way. But it's why I'm in a special school 50 minutes away from my home town. Hence I don't have any home friends, just college friends. Sorry, I'm going off a killer tangent. But yeah, thinking about my whole life makes me upset and feel down, It makes me not want to go to bed (for some reason). I really don't know what's wrong with me. Edit - I was in kind of special school, I'm in college now