Tell me how to not think deeply about EVERYTHING
since i was yea high to the knee of a grasshopper i've looked past the outside of things and into all the nitty gritty details that have a tendency to drive you insane if you think about them too much...
for instance,
say a girlfriend doesn't text back, i sit there for hours constantly turning over a million possibilities about why she didn't.
is her phone dead?
is she dead?
is she mad?
did she get mad at me and wreck because she was distracted?
is she in trouble?
did she get arrested?
did her grandma die?
is she cheating on me?
did i piss her off?
for hours...
but it's not just with girls, no it's anything.
anything makes that shit happen.
the thought of what a computer is,
is a computer kind of like another world?
different laws govern a computer than the ones that govern the world i deal with.
i think about how small we might be.
cause we don't really know how big shit can get.
we don't know anything and i seem determined to figure it all out by thinking, but many of these problems are trivial because they're so important if that makes sense. there's no point, i will fail trying to figure this shit out, so why think about it?
quantum shit... there is nothing to base anything on.
it just start thinking and then i don't stop until i get too stoned or sometimes i just go to sleep to kill the shit going on in my head. and i dream. damnit.
anyway, how do i make that stop?
i guess i want to be one of the shallow ass holes i've spent my life hating.