On April 4th, I had my first ever lucid dream. I remember the day because I wrote about it in my journal. I had almost given up on having one. At least for the time being since I've been too busy with other stuff to really give it much thought.

It occured in the morning, after I had woken up and had been awake for a little while and finally went back to sleep. I remembered reading about WILDS and thought now would be a good time to try it. And so I thought to myself, "Whatever happens in the next little bit will be a dream."

The dream started out simple enough. As usual, I didn't know I was dreaming, but I was watching Spider-Man 2 with my friends and I said to one of my friends, "Can you believe that I know at least one person that didn't like Spider-Man 2?"

My friend replied, "No way!". Of course, I don't know who I was referring to, so that was pretty much all that was said. It should also be noted that the movie didn't look like Spider-Man 2 all that much, but there was a train in the movie and I said, "This is my favorite part!". My friend agreed and then suddenly, we were on the train and it was only me and her and Tobey Maguire who was not in his Spidey Suit. The train was huge and a bit oddly shaped. Tobey was on the other end of the car looking out the window.

My friend said, "We should go talk to him." And I, all shy and stuff, replied, "Nah." But, then something snapped and I thought, "This is a dream.". I looked at her and said, "You know what, this is my dream. You're right! Let's go!".

So, she and I walked over to Tobey and I said, "Hi". He was short. He replied, "Hi." back. And then I thought to myself, "Hmm. My dream what should I do?"

*sigh* To quote a bad pop song, I feel I should say that I ain't nothin' but a mammal.

I stopped the train and we all got off. I started walking down these stone steps that seemed to keep going and I thought, "When do these stairs end?" and then I said, "This is my dream. The stairs end now." And after the last few steps, they did and I found myself on a lower level platform and there was an office type/library thing behind this gate.

I looked back and my friend was still with us. I told her to wait here. I was practically dragging Tobey with me at this point. There were some other boring looking guys in ties and business-y looking shirts in the cage like room.

"This is my dream." I said when I walked in. "Get out." And they did.

To put it bluntly, I began to initiate some not so child-like behavior with Tobey and right when it was all about to happen, my dream faded! I didn't wake up, it just went black!

I thought about going back to sleep and trying to reenter the dream, but I was so excited about having the lucid dream that I had to get up.

The other dream occured this morning...

It began as a "normal" dream in which I was in a Wal-Mart-esque store that was darker than normal and only a few people inside. There was a dinosaur in the store that was electronic, but as large as a "real" dinosaur and I was walking away from it, even though I knew it was "fake". I'm walking down this one aisle that's dark and deserted and I look up and see these shopping carts falling toward me. It was then that I said, "This is a dream." and I reached up and caught them with my hand.

It was right here where I realized how different a "dream" is from a lucid dream because I felt the steel of the cart in my hand. From that point, I decided I didn't really want to be there and at that point, it was pitch black. I remembered what someone had said to me about, "Why didn't you make Johnny Depp appear?" in my last dream (big Johnny Depp fan) and I tried, but I couldn't do it. So at that point, I decided I just wanted to go *somewhere* and I wound up in an older house with a piano by the door. The floors were hardwood and there was a rug over the floor. It was a nice little house. Home-y. There were big windows on either side of the door. A house that I definitely wouldn't mind living in. At that point, I decided to go outside.

When I went outside, it turned to night. I didn't mind, so I started walking down the street. A lot of people were outside. Kids playing, people talking, etc. I got the feeling I was in the 70s for some reason and wondered if I wasn't in some kind of dream parallel universe. I started thinking, "Maybe I'm one of these people." and started looking around at everyone. I started to walk into another house when I noticed a gazebo up ahead and a wedding taking place. For some reason, I really wanted to see who was getting married because it crossed my mind if this was some odd parallel universe dream world that maybe I would be the one getting married. So, I got close enough to see the bride and groom. It wasn't me. They were both really young, too. No more than seventeen or eighteen.

I noticed that the road ended at a church, so I went inside the church and looked around. I went back toward the room I had entered, which was like a reception area, and when I went back, there was an older lady there. She said, "You'll never guess who just left here!". I knew what she was going to say because I knew I was dreaming. But I asked anyway, "Who?". And of course, she said, "Johnny Depp".

Well, I just bolted right out that door and forsaking any bit of dream self-respect I had left, I started yelling his name to see if he would dang well obey me in my dream and show up. It was so real, I was convinced I must be yelling in my sleep. That's how *real* my actions felt. And then I heard this dog yapping. Yap yap yappity yap.

That's when I woke up because my dog was barking his fool head off. How many foul names can you call your dog in under 60 seconds? You have no idea.

What's interesting is when I woke up, I could almost feel the dream slipping away from my memory, so I quickly grabbed my journal and wrote as fast and nasty as I could. It almost seemed easier to remember the non-lucid parts than the lucid ones.

My dreams haven't seemed to last all that long and I want them to last longer. I can't blame myself for the last one since it was the dog that woke me up, but the fading one. Argh!

There's so much I want to do and see and people I want to meet! I'm so shamelessly addicted, it's insane. I bought all the books I could find on lucid dreaming back in January and read them front to back, tried a tape and this was the first time I've had success was this week. I just wondered what changed? Am I going to hit a dry spell? Will they stop?

I sound like an addict in need of a fix. Please feel free to comment on my dreams (or my poor taste in movies or actors...LOL).