Hey. I thought i would share with you a lucid experiment i did the other night. I wanted to test my believe and resolve in my lucid dream so to speak, because i've had problems with overcoming mental blocks and morality issues in the dreamworld, even though i believe that no such thing as morality or ethics exists in my own dreamworld, that i should be able to do anything i want without remorse.

So i became lucid and flew to a house nearby and told myself that i would kill everyone that i see in that house, to see if i could do it and how it would affect me. At that moment, i think that my mind played a little trick on me, because in that cosy little house was a nice little family just sitting down to eat dinner. The man in the house had just come home from work, the woman was making scrambled eggs and their two children was watching tv and laughing. They even asked me to join them at the dinnertable. It was a caricature of the perfect family.

Now i really pushed myself, telling myself that this is just a dream, that it's all in my head and that i can do anything and no one would be harmed, but i couldn't bring myself to harm any of them, not even a little.

This experiment was very educating and interesting to me personally. Strangely (perhaps not) i'm glad that the experiment failed, that i didn't kill or harm any of the dreamcharacters, but on the other hand, this means that i still has a lot of mental blocks hindering me from doing things in the dreamworld that i can't do in the real world. (This doesn't necessary mean doing immoral och unethical acts, just in general)