This is not my first LD but I need help...

[jrdehais]

Good night all, I am here for one reason... today during my morning sleep (I wake up after 11am) I had one of the most difficult dream experiences in my whole life, I am 34 and have been having lucid dreams for over 25 years already, I used to keep track of my dreams, until after 6 years ago when I broke up with my 4year girlfriend, after that she got married 3 years ago and I havent seen her since... I am aware she had a kid and is living with the husbands family... just making some history for people to understand my dream. I was asleep and knew I was sleeping still couldnt control my dream, knew I was dreaming... I was picking my ex girlfriend up from a location (I had 2 dreams before this one, 1 of my cousin that lives in the US with 2 dogs and my mother and a 2nd one of my sister and my 2 cousins from my dads family that were in a sort of mall) so I got out to meet with her, but we were already in the car (taxi) she was telling me that I only have 3 days with her because she had to go to another country, she showed me 2 bags of stuff that I dont recall at this point, but it was all she had a the moment, so we were driving down a hill where traffic on the opposite direction was terrible but the taxi driver was driving carefully, at some point I recall grasping and graving her boobs, which is the beginning of the dream and the reason why I recognized her, then licking one of the nipples, the conversation went on about going somewhere and then I told her that we should grab my car instead of taking the taxi. I was about to tell the taxi driver to head to my house with thinking exactly where to go from a specific area... at that point I woke up, sat down on my bed realized it was a dream... and sent a message to my best friend try to explain her, tears started dropping from my eyes, I couldnt stop... I still dont understand this is the first time a feeling has arisen from a dream with her, I had dreamt of her before normally that dream will mean to me a sign for a really bad day, like the worst days are when I dream of her, but today was not bad, just felt sad about the dream... then I researched and found out that when people have this kind of dreams its because the person is dead... I am worried as I CANT and will not try to contact her... I am really not ready for that, but I am worried that something bad has happened to her. Can someone help me try to understand why all of a sudden, 3 years after I stopped seen her? and why? thanks and sweet dreams all.

[lucidmats]

Mmh hard one, I heard the same about what you read and my mom also had those dreams, exactly at the moment somebody died. Her grandmother in that case. You should look up precognitive dreams but I don´t know in which extend that will help you since the dream maybe wasn´t really precognitive anymore. Maybe it was tho. My advice, contact her. Maybe mail her, something discrete to not get her in trouble with her husband. If everything is fine, perfect! I think it´ll help you getting peace and maybe it´s a step in the right direction of "finishing" your business. Just my advice. You two were close at one point and in my opinion it´s perfectly fine and normal to worry about somebody who played such a big role in your life.. Hope that helped!

[jrdehais]

Mmh hard one, I heard the same about what you read and my mom also had those dreams, exactly at the moment somebody died. Her grandmother in that case. You should look up precognitive dreams but I don´t know in which extend that will help you since the dream maybe wasn´t really precognitive anymore. Maybe it was tho. My advice, contact her. Maybe mail her, something discrete to not get her in trouble with her husband. If everything is fine, perfect! I think it´ll help you getting peace and maybe it´s a step in the right direction of "finishing" your business. Just my advice. You two were close at one point and in my opinion it´s perfectly fine and normal to worry about somebody who played such a big role in your life.. Hope that helped! What you say worries me more, the reason why is because I have had precognitive dreams and those are in my family history, my great grandmother used to have those a lot... besides been able to speak to the dead. I really dont want to contact her, not for the fear of getting her in trouble but for the fear of remembering on both ends, as they say "Where there was fire, ashes remain" and eventhough sometimes I think she might come back, I dont want to force that comming back My psychologist said the same, closure...