Newbie here. First LD. Sorry so long.

[SiKnesS]

Hey guys. I've been coming to this site every day for about 4 months. I read over all of the information available and was intrigued at the possibility to have an LD. The first day I visited the site I tryed terribly hard to WILD and got too anxious. I went about 2 and a half months until I had my first LD. To be honest after about the first 3 weeks I stopped trying to have LD's and read the site less and less. One day I woke up after a night of heavy marijuana and alchohol use. I woke up to a friend of mine offering me a cup of cofee. I needed to wake up that day so I drank the cup very quickly, but soon realised I couldn't possibly wake up. After drinking the cup I immediatly went back to sleep. I wasn't up but for about 2 minutes. I lay my head down and heard something I'd never experienced. In my left ear I heard whispers. It was as if a drop of water was hitting my head and each time it did I heard a whisper. Soon I started hearing it in both ears. It was extremly pleasent, but at no point did I even consider the fact that I may be falling into a dream. I fell asleep and what seemed instantly I woke up again. I had completely forgotten about what had just happened. I had to use the bathroom so I got up, and as I started to close my door a girl I live with whom is quite annoying but very attractive came to the door with her shirt off, as if she were going to get in the shower. Her breasts were squarly in my face and I started feeling insecure as she ran off screaming. I looked down and realised I was naked. At this point I was still unaware that I was dreaming. Looking back on this, it scares me that something that would never happen to me in real life didn't trigger lucidity. I flicked the lightswitch to on, and the lights didn't come on. I was lucid. I got excited and started to look in a mirror that isn't actually there in real life. I smiled at myself and out of no where I had a girl bent over in front of me. Although I regularly think about sleeping with women that aren't the girl I am sleeping with now, I chose to have sex with her. I thought this was very interesting. After the experience climaxed I woke up again feeling like my girlfriend was laying behind me holding me. This is a regular occurance, so I was disapointed that the dream had ended. I opened my eyes and flipped over to look at her and she wasn't there. I was lucid again. I don't remember what happened after that, but I'm pretty sure it lasted for a couple more minutes. So this is my first lucid experience. When I woke up I was totally refreshed. I had been EXTREMLY stressed before I had this dream. More stress and anxiety than I had ever experienced in my life. I woke up feeling better than I can remember in a long time. It seems I've been that way sense. For about 3-4 weeks now. Sense I've tryed WILD several times and have realised that after I've woken up if I drink any cofee or smoke any cigs that I'm too "jittery" to fall back to sleep. Although I feel like if I could just get back to sleep I would certainly have another lucid dream. I've been experimenting with MILD as well, and I'm making progress. I'm remembering my non lucid dreams much more often and in greater detail. I find that even if I've forgotten a dream as soon as I wake up that I start to remember it later in the day. I'm becoming more interested in meditation and it seems to be increasing my dream recall and even my awareness of my dreams. Something that I'm interested in is the affects of marijuana on dreaming. I have not been able to find any information on this. I smoke just about every night, but very little. Just enough to relax. I'm starting to think that It is having a stronger affect on my dream awareness than I realise. Recently I had an experience where I was dreaming, and at one point the thought crossed my mind ( in the dream ) that I may in fact be dreaming. I felt semi-aware throughout the entire dream but I certainly wouldn't have called it lucid. That night I had gone to sleep earlier and although I had smoked the affects of the drug had nearly worn off. Anyhow, thanks for sitting through this ridiculously long and rambling post. Thanks in advance for the comments.

[SiKnesS]

A couple of things I wanted to note: 1) When I had my second false awakening, I could FEEL a person behind me. Not that the person was touching me, but the presence of the person behind me. It was very real. When I opened my eyes and turned to her, her not being there triggered my lucidity. 2) In every part of the dream, at no point, was anything "fake" looking or rather, "not real". Everything at every point in the dream was very life like. The most vivid dream I've ever had. 3) The two nights before I had my first LD ( also the period in which in which I was experiencing extreme anxiety ) I had smoked some methamphetimine. I'm not a regular user ( I had only smoked on two other ocassions ). Go ahead and say whatever you want, I was experimenting and having a good time. I had stayed up for about 2 days and was extremly sleep deprived. The night before I experienced the extreme stress and anxiety ( partly due to withdraw, but mostly do to my bad living arangment at the time ) I was halucinating due to lack of sleep and almost definetly the methamphetimine. At one point I was trying to go to sleep so I stuck my head under the covers and began to halucinate. These reminded me very much of Hypnotic Imagery. It become more intense when smoke appeared under the blanket and I began to inhale and exhale it. The smoke stayed on the left and right side of my vision and it partly cleared revealing a stary night. At the edge of the smoke was a light that appeared to be the moon shining. I tryed desperatly to see the light but my vision wouldn't allow it. These halucinations were very vivid. I was very very tired at the time and my boddy felt as if it were asleep but my mind was not. I finally got to sleep that night and slept for about 8 hours. The next day was the day of stress and anxiety I spoke about. I slept that night and woke up to my cofee. This is when I experienced the lucid. I wanted to post all of this so everyone could get accurate information on the cause of the lucid dream. Opinions as to whether my behavior is good or bad isn't my interest. I want to understand and to give as much information as possible. 4) My sleep history as long as I can remember, with out the use of any drugs has been an extreme amount of anxiousness while trying to sleep. I generally go to bed quite early in the morning and wake up late in the afternoon. I read a brochure at a psychiatrists office about a disorder called RLS ( I believe ) which stands for Rapid Leg movement Syndrome. The symptoms of this accuractly describe the way I feel at night. I have not been diagnosed. I thought it might be interesting to bring this up here. I have not seen any discussion on this. I'm hoping everyone here can see this experience for what it is. Although I am a drug user, I still believe the information to be valid and of use. Thanks again. I'm truly enjoying this site.