The other day, when my sleep pattern was disturbed, i finally went to sleep lateish.. I was falling asleep on my left side when all of a sudden i saw a boney hand creepily coming from the right side of my bed and i get all freaked out, but i realized that i was having a WILD. so i try to turn to the right, so i can look at it and face whatever that arm belongs to, and i had trouble turning, like i wasnt able to. Then i must have woken myself up, or probably had a false awakening, next thing i knew i was dreaming again. i tried jumping out of my bed, i found myself beside my bed on the floorm and i had trouble standning up, finall i did and i started spinning and picturing some place i have been planning to LD in. (I have never spinned in dreams before..)
and it didnt work i just kept seeing black.. by this time i was pretty freaked out by the dark, and the creepy hand, that i just gave up and continued / fell asleep.
[im afraid of the dark and creepy shit like that, so it took some courage to get up like that]

..Im just kind of puzzled because I have had lucid dreaMS before and i am fully aware that in my dreams i can do ANYTHING. and that if i want the monster to go away i know i can make it happen. and while i was spinning i knew that this environment shud dissapear and i should be somewhere else because i want that to happen, and i believe i can do it
.. yet it never did.. why!!!
I finnally had an LD again and .. its gone just like it came..
I guess i need more faith?!?!