I don't want to go lucid

[Serlyhn]

Okay here's the thing. Last night I went to bed around 4 am. I was just lying in bed..All of a sudden the thought of moving my arm without moving it came across my mind. So I moved my arm..but my body wasn't reacting though my lucid body was. I was like hey that's funny..and after that I fell asleep. I woke up and immediately noticed there was something wrong. I was in my old room and my old bed and I felt so sick that I wanted to throw up. I knew I was in a dream again. But it was different this time. So I sat on the edge of my bed. Still shaking and feeling sick. So I sat for a while and noticed the lights going on and off in my room. Hmm I thought, let's prove it is a dream. I slapped myself in the face and I didn't feel anything. But I don't want to know that I am dreaming I just want to let my irrational mind take control and let the thoughts flow. I just wanted to wake up. But my mind had another thing in store for me. Ever had that feelign that you can't concentrate on your thoughts? That you can't really hear yourself thinking because of the noise in your head. Well, something of someone thought it was funny to play the radio in my head. And I knew at that point that that person wasn't originally created by my own mind. I rather thought of a ghost interfering my dream. Like he or she also sneaked in and that that was the reason my body and mind were sepparated this night. Anyway I was dying to wake up.. But I just didn't know what to do. I knew my body was sleeping. So I thought after the freaking thing stopped that radio 'lets try to scream as loud as i ca'n, maybe my sleeping body will make a noise to and wake herself.; So I started screaming.. no response.. After a while i gave up and the other person left but left the radio on.. So I stepped back in bed again..covering my ears though I couldnt stop the noise ofcourse.. and I fell asleep. I woke up. Another room..the same bed. I was like NOO fucking hell..before I could say anything out loud the noise started again. I need to get out I don't want to be aware of all this.. I kinda freaked out, cos my alarm was on radio stance as well so I feared that the noise in my head would overrule the noise of the alarm so that i would oversleep or worse not wake up at all. So I just sat on the bed again.. just waiting for myself to wake up..not knowing what to do.. cause leaving the room had no purpose, i wouldnt be leaving the dreamworld anyway by leaving it. So I waited and waited..and fell asleep..and woke up in a few other rooms also.till I woke up again in my own bed..ofcourse not believing it was real that I was back... Seriously. now I know what it is like to be trapped in your own mind. I never want to go through that again!

[spiritofthewolf]

that is subjected to happen when LDing..ive had simliar experiences where i would be in a Ld and i wouldn't beable to move, i would be stuck in my LD only being able to see what was in front of me..its happened a few times..but the thing is, is you got to get your subconcious to understand that everything in your dream is your own creation...you have the power to make things, and you have the power to break things.....

[Bricnic]

Hey there! Welcome to Dream Views, even though I haven't been here all that long myself. Sounds like a bit of a nightmare. Is this your first lucid dream? I figure it isn't, because you describe yourself as a "lucid scholar". I found when I was trying to induce a WILD about a week ago that music also kept playing in my head, unconsciously too. I guess it has something to do with the brain recalling the experiences of the day- did you listen to music during the day, like in the car or anything? Hope you have better dreams in the future

[Serlyhn]

I was able to move.. I wasnt in my body I was in another place. though I knew it was useless to go and walk around. Just wanted to wake up. It wasnt my first lucid dream either. I usually am lucid. and when I do not get lucid instantly .. I still know I am dreaming but I know it is another dream. A dream where I should get a clear view from. I actually base everything on my dreams, the way I think about people and about the way they are.. mostly my dreams are not far from the truth.

[Ubik]

One way to look at this situation is to get scared and stop Lding all together. However another (more productive) way is to say to yourself 'If LDing got me this scared imagine the possibilities of the complete opposite happening' i.e. a dream so fantastic and pleasant that you don't want to wake up from it. If your mind can create such intense unpleasent experiences it is also possible for it to create incredibly intense pleasent experiences. Please don't let this one experience put you off, you could miss out on so much...