First WILD attempt/Goldfish

[Twoshadows]

First WILD attempt...a success!! May 1 2006 2:00am I just had an amazing experience. I wrote it down on paper when I first got up, but then decided to get it right on the computer. Here it is: I was awakened at about 12:15 and was having trouble falling back asleep, so I got up and did a few things and then laid back down in bed. Laying awake in bed at night has always frustrated me. I feel like I am wasting time, yet I know I need to try to sleep. But this time I thought I would make use of this time. I decided to try to WILD. It had been quite a while since I had read about WILDing, so I wasn't really sure what to do. I did remember something about counting down back from one hundred while laying real still. I figured it was worth a try since there was nothing to lose. So I got in a comfortable position on my back and slowly counted down from one hundred. But I kept having itches and found myself scratching them. I got down to one and started again. At about 50 I thought, "This isn't working. I must be forgetting to do something." So I stopped counting. I laid there for a few more minutes and then I suddenly felt very sleepy. I figured I'd try one more time. This time I didn't even count. I just laid there staring at the ceiling and focused on the feeling of myself becoming more and more "detatched" from my body. I heard a noise that was like a "hum", and I saw the ceiling "bouncing". Or maybe I was the one bouncing. Which ever it was, the ceiling would come closer then go back, then closer and then back, until finally I reached out my hand to see if I could "physically" feel it. Sure enough, I could feel it...even the texture of the plaster. When that happened I knew that I had successfully WILDed and I was in a Lucid Dream. I did the first thing that seems to come naturally for me in LDs. I flew out of bed and down toward the door. This time it was still dark outside. I remembered that in my last LD I was able to control the weather so it wasn't cold outside. I did the same in this dream. I opened the door and flew out in the not-so-cold night. I could see the house lights and street lights around me as I started to fly higher. Finally I looked over toward the city and saw all the city lights. I realized that this was not my city, but a much larger city. I decided it didn't matter. In this dream my house was on some sort of hill overlooking the downtown area. I had to fly across the hill before the ground dropped away, and I was over all the city lights. That was pretty cool. But then everything changed. I wasn't expecting this. My last LD seemed so perfectly real except for the fact that I was flying. But this one got a little strange. I was suddenly in a big dark room flying over these board games. Everything was huge, like I was the size of a fly in comparison. I didn't like it. I wanted to go back outside. I tried to change that, but was frustrated that I couldn't. I also wanted to see other people, since my LDs don't seem to have other people in them (except for that little girl that just passed through in the other one). But I couldn't make anyone show up. I decided to try one more thing. I remembered that the Lucid Dream task for April was to swallow a goldfish (It didn't dawn on me that I was now at least an hour into May). So I decided that I would fly into the next room, and that I would see a fish tank full of goldfish by the wall. And....yes.....this time I was able to do it. So there it was...this fish tank in an otherwise empty room. I landed on the floor beside it and looked at the fish. There were about 8 in the tank. They were a little more like Koi than the typical goldfish, but I figured that I had done pretty well considering this was only my second LD. They were all about 3 inches long and white in color with little spots of gold and black. When I had read about this task I had wondered if "dream goldfish" felt or tasted anything like real goldfish. I was actually very curious to find out. I stuck my hand in the water and grabbed one. To my dismay, it felt exactly like a real fish...cold, wet, and slightly slimy. Without looking at it closely, I popped it in my mouth. I stood there for a moment not knowing what to do next. I had hoped that once I got it into my mouth I could wish it into a cookie and chew it up and swallow it. But instead I had a very large, very real goldfish wiggling around in my mouth. It was too big to swallow whole. Yet the idea of chewing it was too gross to consider. I finally thought, "If I can make myself fly in a dream, I certainly can make myself swallow a goldfish!" and with that, I swallowed. The huge goldfish went about halfway down my throat before stopping. I started to gag. Unfortunately, the gagging made me wake up. But again, I wasn't upset. I suddenly realized the significance of what I had just accomplished....my first WILD....and how easy it had come. I had been feeling slightly frustrated that a week and a half had gone by since my first LD, and I had had nothing else close to an LD since then.....until now. I am definitely going to try this again.

[Axis]

Congratulations Twoshadows, that’s a very impressive WILD. Keep it up! - Axis

[Sebbels]

Very well done! It was fun to read it. Sebbels

[Oneironaut Zero]

Way to go, Twoshadows. I can hardly ever even remember the damn lucid tasks whenever I get the opportunity to do them.

[Twoshadows]

Thanks, guys, for the supporting comments. It's nice to know I have somewhere to go and share these experiences. Lucid dreaming is something I have found that most people don't seem to "get". It's silly, but it's like I suddenly have this great ability. Yet I can't prove it or show it off...or even share it with others. It's an odd kind of feeling. Thanks again for being here....... Christine

[Oneironaut Zero]

That same feeling is what made me start losing my interest in LDing back in high school. After a while it's just like "Well damn, what's the use of spending the time of learning such a rare and interesting ability, if I can't talk to anybody that at least understands it?" It gets pretty damn frustrating, if you ask me. Only one of many reasons why I'm glad I found this place.

[Nerte]

Thanks for sharing with us. Can I ask? Was that dream vivid as reality?

[Nikolaa]

man,that makes me want evin more to LD,on my to do list,it sais "go to spac" cloud have u opened a door and be in space,floteing around,felling the whol univers??

[Twoshadows]

Nerte... Was the dream as vivid as reality? My answer is both yes and no. At the time, yes. In retrospect, no. In my first LD I was surprised how "normal" things felt. I was very aware of my dream body. It felt real. My sense of "touch" felt normal. I could feel the textures of the things I touched. I could feel the coolness of the air around me. My mind could "think" the way it normally would. In this second LD I was also surprised at how real that goldfish was and how the task of swallowing it was more difficult that I thought it might be in a dream. (In real life in high school I swallowed an earthworm on a dare, so I knew I was capable of swallowing gross things. So maybe that helped. I don't know.) So for the most part it did feel very real and it seemed like I was right there experiencing all of it. On the other hand there was something that felt "different" in both LDs from real life. Something quite vague...hard to pin-point. It might be the fact that I was very aware that it was a dream, and that I knew that this was not my real body. And of course, there is the fact that all dreams fade when you awaken. So looking back, it doesn't seem as real as it did at the time. That's why I want to write things down immediately and be as accurate as I can. Otherwise I might remember things a little different than they actually were in the dream. I hope that answers your question, Nerte. Good luck with your LDing!

[Twoshadows]

Hi Oneironaut! Yeah, we've had this conversation before. I didn't think about it when I first got interested that it would be one of these oddball hobbies that most people couldn't relate to, therefore causing me to be somewhat on my own with it... Yesterday I was walking around with a smile on my face the whole day (because of the WILDing). But it wasn't the kind of thing I wanted to go tell everyone about. I have told a few close friends and family members, and I have gotten mixed reactions from them about it. So mostly I'm just going to have to keep it to myself or share it with all you lucky folks on this board... And thanks Oneirnaut, for your comments and PMs to me about this. And everyone else who has commented. It has given me the chance to talk about this and share my experiences...and I seem to need to. Christine

[Twoshadows]

Nikolaa, When I was in that stupid room with the board games I tried to change the scenery. I couldn't seem to get back outside...but I could make a tank of goldfish show up. I have no idea why I was able to do the one and not the other. But I have a feeling this is one of those things that gets easier with practice. In my first LD there was a certain place I wanted to go, so I started flying there. But my mind was going to make me fly the normal way. What I needed to do was "magically" change things so I could get there quicker. In my second LD I was actually trying to do that...just instantly take me to where I wanted to go...and see who I wanted to see. I'd also love to go to space. That would be pretty amazing. And I know it is possible. I'll have to keep trying and see what works for me. It's probably one of those individual things where we all have to find our own way of finding out what works for us. Christine

[Nerte]

Thanks Twoshadows! My first real LD (only few seconds) was just like that. I really believe, that at the time it was real as reality ( remember wondering excited as hell how real it is), and also after I woke up I was like "Damn it was so vivid". But later, after few hours/days I was askin myself "was it really that real as I thought?" Like you said "At the time it was". Thanks, I wanted to hear exactly this answer

[darkster2]

/goldfish? This will go into my, wierd stuff section of my brain...

[Amidreaming?]

like you guys said earlier this is the only place where i can actually discuss lucid dreaming. only 1 of my friends is even slightly interested. im really glad i found this place. And that was an awesome ld i soo wish i get lucid soon but i guess it'll just come with practice. thanx alot razzy razz razz