WOOO!!! FIRST SUCCESSFUL WILD!!!

Hehehehe... oh yeah... I'm still buzzing. Hehehehe...

I was a bit sleep deprived at 4am thismorning, and I knew I didn't really have time to get a full sleep scycle again before I have to wake up to university, soooo... I decided fuckit, I'll make a WILD attempt.

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So, I go and lie down and stuff, and do the 61-point relaxation technique, and breathing techniques, all that other relaxation shit. This takes a while, and I don't actually remember getting the vibrations all that much. Then again, this is not unusual for me; In all my WILD attempts, I tend to get very, very light vibrations and minimal sleep paralysis.

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I focus on the hypnogogic imagery, like, all the lights and stuff, and curtains of lights, and patterns. I get distracted sometimes by my breathing, but that's cool. At one point I have a little daydream, but I come back to reality quick enough. My eyes start moving slowly under my eyelids, but soon this desists, or else, I stop noticing it. This ain't anything special, either, I've felt this before in most of my WILD attempts.

hehehehehe... (sorry, I'm just so pumped right now!)

So, then I start to fade into the dream. I'm outside the walls of jerusalem, and I'm some sort of dog-wolf-monster hybrid. This is weird, so I think to myself, "fuck this, I wanna be a knight on a horse and shit", so I imagine the cloppin of hooves, and soon enough, I sorta shift into a knight on horseback. The shifting/morphing sensation was REALLY cool, like I was being pulled upwards and forwards, and I could FEEL the horse forming under me. At this point, this is all very, very, vague, and I can't actually see much... I know what and where I am more because of vague ideas rather than what I can actually see. I just remember I WAS a knight on horseback. The whole outside the walls of jerusalem is a combination of my mediaeval history paper, and also a custom battle from a computer game I used to play, years back, Medieval: Total War, based on a real battle, where the crusaders (forgot which crusade) are forced to fight outside the walls of jerusalem. ANYWAY...

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Then I have a false awakening!!! I somehow shift from being the knight on the horse to being in bed, and I start rising up like a zombie out of a grave. My eyes open, I think. (I don't have to do a reality check, cos I know instantaneously that this is still the dream, and is a FA) So, I'm standing, but at this point everything is blurry and warped and I have fuck all balance, sorta like I;m really drunk, really stoned, half-asleep, and stunned, all at the same time. So... I LOOK AT THE BACK OF MY HANDS!!! WOOO!!!

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Now THIS clears things up. I'm in my bedroom, which is totally the same, except one walls morrocan red, kinda like the Persian carpet mum got yesterday. So, I walk into the lounge, and try to do something, but nobody's there. So, I walk back into the hallway, and go to my mother's bedroom. (I've been living alone with my mother ever since my parents divorced... well, seperated, rather, I can't remember if they're formally divorced yet... I'm 20, by the way...) So, mums in bed, and we have a conversation about plans for the future and stuff. I remember the conversation almost word-for-word, but I won't go into it here. It'll be in my dream journal when I type it up later today at university.

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SO! What 'yall think? WOO!!! SO psyched...

*pretends to break down in tears like all the female movie stars at the oscars and shit*

I'd like to thank the following people:

Gwendolyn, for being my adoptive mother, and helping me, and stuff... you've been a MASSIVE help. So was bobby, actually, BRING BACK BOBBY!!!

Mitzie_31, for being such a funny bitch and putting me in such a good mood, without which, I don't think I would have made the WILD attempt...

My real-life mum and dad, for not thinking I'm some sort of hippie or new-age freak for trying to lucid dream. Well... actually, my mum IS a bit weirded out, but hey, that's neither here nor there. Plus, dad's gone nuts... he's a vegetarian now, and meditates and does yoga and crap, so it'd be pretty ironic if HE started calling ME a new age freak...

Icedawg and seeker and all the other people who've made this forum such a great, helpful community.

Stephen LaBerge for EWOLD... duh...

Seeker AGAIN for his INCREDIBLY helpful "five stages of WILD" tutorial

Last, an certainly not least, I'd like to thank... ME!!!!! WOOO!!! I ROCK!!!

hehehehehe... okay, I'm done. I'm done, I'm good, I'm sane again now... at least, mostly sane...

EDIT: adding more thankies... hehehehehe...