Okay. *takes a deep breath* This one is a long one, I do have a few questions I will ask at the end of this post. So if you're strapped for time, or find me to be boring, I take no offence, just scroll down and read over the questions if you're up for trying to answer some questions I have. I don't remember as much as I did two days ago, and I really kick myself for not writing it completely out sooner.

Now, my first lucid dream happened on Monday(05-08-06). I was up until 4am on Sunday night and my brother-in-law wakes me up at 9am to watch Hannah because he has to leave for Vernon to go work all week. Our morning routine starts and there is nothing out of the ordinary happens; I am extremely tired but that's about it. We go downstairs after breakfast and I lay there watching her television shows with her, slipping in and out of sleep. I forced myself to stay awake longer and I decide I will nap with her.

Well, 11:30 comes rolling around and we go to have a nap together. I give her a kiss goodnight and roll over. I listen to Hannah(my niece) talk to herself. I close my eyes(I fall sleep and this is where the dream begins) and then all of a sudden my girlfriend jumps on the bed and tells me to get up. Hannah and I sit up slightly. This isn't strange to me because we were planning on spending the remainder of the week together at my house. I assume she found a ride and we have a brief discussion. I hear a boys voice coming from the livingroom and I ask her who that is; she says it's my little brother(he moved to Edmonton with the rest of my younger siblings and mother) so I was very happy to see he had come to British Columbia early for summer vacation. He comes in and I say hello. They leave to go sit in the livingroom.

I take my time getting out of bed and I make my way into the livingroom. My girlfriend is sitting on the couch, Bradley is sleeping on the chair and I see Hannah running around. Wait... Hannah was just in bed with me. There is no way she somehow got by me into the livingroom. I remember how extremely confused I felt. I looked over at my girlfriend and I asked her "was Hannah just in here?", I don't remember what her reply was, but I started to get watery eyes thinking I was going crazy. I went back and forth between the rooms and observe both Hannahs. I remember thinking there is no way this could happen. It is then I realize that this is a dream. It makes so much sense because there being two sets of Hannahs is impossible and I remember going to have a nap with her. I of course get very, very excited and I see my sister. I go up to her.

"Jeanine! Jeanine, you're not real! You're in my dream, this is a dream."

She gives me a strange look. It didn't bug me because I was just estatic that I realized it was a dream. I then go to change my niece(I don't know why I changed her, I knew she was just a character in my dream.I guess my motherly instincts still kick in while I dream) and I thought to myself that since this is a dream, I can control it. I told myself that there is a toy underneath he change table mattress. I lift up the right side and I find this wierd toy. I take it out and put it on the floor. I was very pleased with myself for somehow knowing it was there. I say there is another toy on the other side, and there was. I don't remember some of the details after I changed Hannah, I ended up at someone elses house. There was a mustard colored version of our dog walking around. I scoop him up and I go to a few people and explain to them how this doesn't happen in real life, they are in my dream. I put him down and there is this phonebooth looking thing. I told myself I bet I could change the person who is in there. There was a crowd of people around me and I kept closing the door and opening it, and the person would change. I felt magical. One of the people I changed turned into a naked David Bowie. I remember people were all going "ooOOOOOoo" because he was naked.

I leave and my brother-in-law comes in the door and he's holding walmart bags. My sister says "you went to walmart instead of going to work?" and he replied yes. I was happy because that means I get the day off. I leave again and I'm running into people, talking to them. I decide that I want to try to fly, I back up a bit and do a bit of a run. I jump and I end up going up a few feet and then landing. I then started to get frightened because everything seemed so real, so vivid. Not very dream-like at all. I didn't know if I was dreaming, or if it was real. How did I not notice this before? Now, this is what really confuses me. I was able to check to see if I was sleeping. I opened my eyes and looked at my niece and I saw her sleeping. I close my eyes and go back to sleep. I was dreaming again. I ended up doing that one more time, to check to see if she was awake and I was sleeping instead of watching her. On top of that I kept getting confused. The realism of the dream was sort of overwhelming at that point. I kept wanting to check if I was sleeping but I was terrified of opening my eyes incase I wasn't able to get back to sleep. I moved my legs and I could feel them underneath the blanket. I had my eyes closed, but it was like I was still dreaming, but it wasn't vivid or real seeming. It was sort of dark, and almost blurry. I find a girl I know, her name is Janice. We have a hate-love relationship. She is the type of girl where we would could be great lovers(only in a sexual manner) or great enemies. I will say that I am very attracted to this girl(sexually), and since I knew it was a dream, I knew that I could do what I wanted and I wouldn't get in trouble. I tell myself we're going to have sex later(this is not like me at all. I am a very loyal person, and I don't even let myself think about any sexual attraction I have towards anyone because I feel that it is wrong). I took Janice aside and we talked, we ran into another one of those phonebooth looking things and I told her to pick anyone and I would be able to summon them(almost prove to her, even though she wasn't real, that this was a dream). She said David Bowie because she wanted to see him naked. Now that I think about it it I don't know why I didn't ask her why she wanted to see him out of all people, she's a lesbian and isn't interested in men. I closed the door(now, the doors on these phone booth things were wooden, you couldn't see through them. So it's not like I could see them appear) and was told myself in my head David Bowie was going to be there and he was. We went in the booth with him and talked to eachother, people walked by giving us thumbs up for some reason. I was like "ew, no. that's not why I'm in here". So we left and I had found a wierd room with wierd stairs. I go inside and wait for Janice and I'm obviously not going to go into detail, but I'm sure you all know what happened. Now, I remember this part quite vividly. More than any other part in my dream.

There are a few other things that happened but I don't remember at what point they happened at. I was by myself, trying to read something. I read it at least 6 times, but it didn't make sense that I was reading it because you couldn't read it. It wasn't words, it was just black scratched and wierd blots and stuff. What the hell was I reading? Another thing that happened was that I wanted to change my location completely. I wanted to go to a place I saw in a Xena episode. I didn't really know how to do it, I thought if I just said "take me here" it would take me there. Well, it didn't. I was still where I was so I gave up on that and went and did something else.

I'm really kicking myself right now for not completely writing it out. My lesson is learnt. I have a notebook and pen in my drawer by my bed so I can write them out as soon as I wake up. I wish I could make you understand it better.

Now, my questions are these.

-How come the realness of my dream didn't frighten me when I first realized what was going on(at the beginning I mean)?
-Did I just dream waking up and seeing my neice? I feel like it wasn't a dream, it was real, but is that possible? To wake up and continue lucid dreaming?
-This isn't so much of a question, but I want to know if anyone could explain to me the part where I was able to feel my legs move underneath the blankets, but I still remained somewhat dreaming? Was that a dream, too?

There are also parts in my dream where I feel like I lost lucidity because I wouldn't have done certain things if I knew I was dreaming. But I can't remember if I knew I was dreaming when I did that. (EDIT: Is it also possible to lucid dream, lose lucidity and then gain it back later?)

It was an overwhelming, awesome experience, but at the same time very, very confusing. And me not writing it down completely doesn't help either.

So if anyone can help me out that would be great. Either on here, or over PMs. Comments, and questions for me are most definitely welcome. Thank you for your time! ^_^