So today I had a very strange experience with a dream I had during a very short nap (about 20 minutes). I rarely take naps, but I always have a strange dream experience when I do. Anyways...
I turn on my messenger program and see this girl, kelly, is online. She blew me off the other day...I wasn't too mad, I had kinda just wrote it off. The question that is bugging me is why she decided at the last minute to bail out... either way, when I saw her on messenger I got a strange feeling...almost anger towards her.
I sit around and wait for her to talk to me. She doesn't, so when i'm done with the computer I shut it off. I sit down to read, but quickly decide to take a short nap, so I set my alarm to go off in a half hour. Before I fall asleep I say to myself: "I want to see kelly right now."
I feel myself drift off into sleep...this is rare for me. I had the word 'sleep' repeating in my head like a mantra to take me to sleep as quickly as possible.
Now a girl is shaking me to wake me up. I don't know her, she just looks familiar. There are two other people with her, all on my bed. One of them is kelly, and as I notice her she comes close to me and says "just kiss me..." and goes in for the hug. I push her back, 'cause i'm kinda mad that she ditched me the other night. I say 'no' to her.
The dream kinda fades/connects back to reality and I see my mom standing at the door telling me to wake up. I heard her saying "I have to wake [me] up."
Now i'm standing in a room with the 3 DC's that woke me up into the dream reality. It's like we're in my kitchen, but i'm not sure what's going on. Kelly is standing close to me and giving me the wide-eyed 'i want you' look. I want to ask her why she stood me up, but I hold it back. I don't want to give her that pleasure...
I see/hear/experience the same scene with me hearing my mom talking, then seeing her stand in the door looking at me. I think to myself..."wow, I must have been asleep for a while if my mom has already came in to wake me up twice! And why didn't my alarm go off?"
I'm in the kitchen next to kelly. She looks at me deeply and says "just hug me..." as though she's begging for any sort of affection I can show her. I hug her. I enjoy it a lot...I can really feel her, as though it's all real. I decide to kiss her, and it feels good aswell... this entire experience is very blissfull to all my senses, even recalling it now gives me a similair sensation... it's like I saw all of her faults, but seemed to love her regardless That feeling of oneness with all...
I'm now back, looking at my door. The light beaming in from under the door is a candle that I figure my mom had put inside my room, not sure why though. On the door, rather than a doorknob, there is a small green/rainbow colored eye. I think to myself it represents infinity, or god or something...
I hear my mom saying "I'm going to go get [me]." She comes to my door and I see her sillouette. She's darkness with the light from the hallway paints her background. Her features take form and she says: "oh...are you awake?"
I am now. "I'm just taking a short nap..." i said, "and i'll be up soon."
I look at my alarm and it still has 10 minutes left!!!!
even though I knew I dreamt the image of my mom talking outside than comming to my door, I still felt that I had to ask to make sure. She said that she only came the one time.
I could be that I subconscioussly knew that my mom was going to come in because she was cooking dinner...but it's still very weird to me. It really felt as though I experienced the same scene of her comming to my room a number of times, as though it was showing my direct future...
So ya, thank you for reading. It was an amazing and wonderfull experience, I just don't know what to take away from it.
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