First successfull but very PAINFULL WILD :-(

[Sara]

Yeah, last night I had my first WILD experience! Long story, urgent question at the bottom. Please read if you have experiences with painful SPs.... I knew somehow this would be possible, entering a dream from sleep paralysis since I've 'suffered' from SP for at least 2x a week the past year. It stopped happening when I began reading about Lucid Dreaming (and the fact SP is a way to enter a WILD) because it felt exciting, which woke me up. So for one thing, I'm happy I got back my ability to enter SP. (probably because I was more tired, which seems to induce SP) But what also came back, is the terrible physical experience that goes along with it So, here is my WILD in detail: I lay on my right side, facing my BF sleeping next to me. I had the Ultimate Lucid Induction mp3 on my iPod on the lowest volume. I feel I'm 'falling' into SP and I'm too sleepy to become excited about it and wake myself up. I got to the point where my body says: BREATHE OR DIE! Before knowing what SP was, I started to focus on my breathing as hard as I could, trying to wake up or waking up my BF, who would then touch me and get me out of it. But now my thoughts were split, between waking up and going through and enter a dream. So it went like: breathe, no relax, no breathe! no go with it! At the same time, a terrible feeling got into my head. It was like wearing a way too small helmet, pushing on my head from all sides, making it want to implode or explode or whatever, while at the same time it felt like there was a lot of noise, while there was nothing to hear.... not even the mp3 on my iPod. The one moment I felt my body started breathing faster, then I was seeing through my eyelids that my BF did not react on that. I remember thinking 'ah, I'm looking through my eyelids, so I'm starting to dream now, let's try to get up'. I managed to get myself up (in my dream) The noise/pressure on my head was increasing and I was angry with my boyfriend for not helping me to get out of SP, but at the same time I was happy I was in a dream. But ARGH that noise/pressure/pain! I wanted it to go away, but couldn't think clear because of it. I punched my BF, then jumped into the air, throwing myself onto my BF (like in a fight, really meant to hurt him/wake him up, but he didn't. Instead of landing on him, I felt through the bed, through the wall and onto the floor. I remember very clearly looking at the floor, it had exactly same pattern as IRL and I could feel it being cold and looking at my hands, since I was on my hands and knees (but don't remember if my hands looked odd). Then the pain/pressure was TOO MUCH to handle, I couldn't feel my legs (just like my previous short LD) and I was happy I woke up because the pain was mostly gone, I still had some vague headache, but I could cope with that. I switched the music on my iPod to my regular sleeping music (Norah Jones) and fell asleep fast and calm. Pfew, what story of only a minute of LD experience. What I wanted to ask: How can I train myself to get rid of this pressure/pain in my head???? Is there a strategy, words to say to myself, things to look at, or maybe trying to endure it till it goes away? I feel that it would not be too hard for me to WILD, once I get over this... It happened before 2 or 3 times, when I was unaware of what SP was and thought to myself: what the heck, I just give up breathing and feel what it's like to 'fall'. But this noise/pressure urged me to breathe anyway so I woke up. So, off to sleep now (2nd nap), I hope there is someone with a good idea. Or just telling me you have a similar experience would help me too