Ok, so this is my first post so here's a bit of background info:

I'm 26, living in a mid sized town in the north of Scotland, used to live in Glasgow but moved up here 12 years ago after my grandmother died, which incidentally is what the majority of my nightmares are about.

So last night i went to bed just after midnight which is nothing new, i hadn't eaten anything out of the ordinary or any later than normal, but throughout the whole night i had recurring Dreams/Nightmares about the night my gran died, essentially reliving the experience which was one of the worst nights of my life as we were very close. Now I've had this on countless occasions since the incident happened, but this morning around 7:50 i think it would have been i started to have a completely new nightmare that I've never had before.

I have a close friend called Robbie who lives about 13 miles away, speak on Skype regularly etc and game together on WoW, worked together in the past etc. But in this dream i went to see him at home only to find that his door was sealed by police tape etc, tried calling him on his mobile and it said the number was disconnected. Frustrated i left to go and speak to his parents to find out what is going on only to be told that he was dead but they would not tell me when, or how it had occurred.

Strangely at this point not believing his own parents about it i went back to his home and tried knocking etc with no answer but when i tried the door it was open so i ducked under the police tape and entered to find the house as it would be normally had nothing happened, just no Robbie present. After a few minutes of just standing there i left the house in tears, walking down to another friend's car i see Robbie walking toward me who stops n says "sorry, but everything'll be fine" and then just vanishes.

Extremely confused i get in the back of my other friends car (3 door) for some odd reason as the front seat is free but it's not her driving, can't really remember who was but i know it wasn't her, as we're driving along I'm sitting there crying and now Robbie is in the front seat, and turns to say "don't be like this, it was the same when Sally (his IRL partner) died". At this point all I remember from the dream is the want to commit suicide and then i woke up.

which is also strange as IRL as far as i know both Robbie & Sally are fine as far as i know although i haven't spoken to either of them today as it's still early here.


This is a really strange one for me as i was literally sweating like crazy, tears rolling down my face when i woke up, feeling extremely upset.
I've had thoughts of suicide before but not for a long time and usually if anything it's the dreams about my gran which elicit this type of feeling in me but I've never had this kind of dream about anyone else before and certainly never had anything affect me to this extent and if I'm honest fighting back tears just writing it all down :S

Any helpful opinions are more than welcome, really dunno why i feel this way and would welcome any ideas to stop it...