Childhood Recurring Nightmare that was Unspeakable

[Serene]

Just a little history behind what might have caused the dream. My brother died of crib death when I was 2 and from what I know from my mom she is RH negative and my dad was positive so all of her births had some issues. My older brother who is 11 months older than me had severe retardation, I was a placenta previa baby and had to be resuscitated at birth, my brother a year younger is the one who died, however my mom also had my other brother when I was 3 years old and he had to have a full blood transfusion. My recurring nightmare was my dad and I in a cabin in the woods (I never went to a cabin), it was dark and dreary, I was in my room when I heard a baby crying so knowing I always helped my mom feed the baby I leaped up and looked around for my mom, I only found my dad who was staring out the window at the trees. I kept hearing the baby so I followed the sound (I think I knew I was dreaming because I didn't see my mom and knew we didn't have a cabin) I went outside and it was damp and wet with a lot of trees, I didn't see any neighbors. I kept following the sound wondering where it was coming from when I saw a box on the wall, like an electrical box and I opened it up and inside was a dead baby, yet the crying was piercing my ears. In my dream I told my dad and he told me I could never tell anyone. (My dad was on a Coast Guard cutter when my brother died) Spooked me more than any and it was always the same. It was one I couldn't control but it eventually went away but I heard crying babies for years, especially when I gave birth to my son.

[ghuntington]

Hi Serene! That's quite a dream! If you'd like my interpretation of it then please do the following. What I've learnt from my own dreams is that there is nothing in a dream by chance. Therefore, if you answer the following questions, to the best of your recall ability, I will happily give you an interpretation of your dream as if it was mine. First tell me the number of scenes in your dream. THEN FOR EACH SCENE I want you to tell me the following: Location: I want you to look in your mind, as the observer, in the following directions and tell me what you see: 1. To your left. 2. To your right. 3. In front of you. 4. Behind you. 5. Above you. 6. Below you. It’s all right if you can’t recall much. Simply tell me what you see and make sure I know what direction it is from you the dreamer. In my interpretation, you’ll see how this is a symbol itself. When you are describing what you see, tell me in as much detail as you can recall about it. So things I am very interested in is what are walls, doors, windows, stairs, tables, etc. made of, age/style, colour, etc. The same goes for anything outside. You’ll see in my interpretations how all of this tells us lots about ourselves. Lighting: 1. Tell me what the lighting was like, i.e. bright, dull, black, cloudy etc. 2. Then tell me where the light was coming from. 3. Can you tell the time of day or season? Lighting is important in a dream because it’s a symbol of vibrational state. I’ll explain this during my interpretation for you. Objects: If there are any objects in a dream scene, then tell me about them as follows: 1. Shape, size, colour and what they were made of. 2. Where the object is in the dream relative to you, i.e. left, right, etc. I’ve found objects in dreams are usually symbols of things we first need to concentrate on spiritually. I’ll explain this in the interpretation if you had any objects in any of the scenes. People: For each person in a dream scene I want you to do the following: 1. Describe them to me in as much detail as you can recall. This includes age, gender, clothes, colour of the clothes, what the clothes were made of. 2. Tell me where they were in the dream scene relative to you, i.e. left, right, below, etc. 3. Tell me if they were lying down, sitting, standing, walking, etc. 4. Tell me what they did with you. Don’t skip the details. Simply tell me exactly what happened. 5. If there are any conversations or thoughts between you and the person or others, then tell me EXACTLY WHAT WAS SAID. This is important. 6. If there were others you couldn’t see but felt, then let me know where you felt they were in a scene relative to you the dreamer, i.e. left, right, etc. Animals. Etc.: If there were any animals, insects, birds, reptiles, fish or whatever in any of the scenes, then tell me. Describe them in as great as detail as you can recall. Also let me know where they were in the dream scene relative to you, i.e. left, right, etc. Then let me know of any thoughts that passed between you and them. Thoughts/Feelings: This is a very important part of every dream scene. Take your time, go back and tell me the following for each scene: 1. What was your first thought/feeling as the dream scene began. 2. Tell me of any thoughts/feeling changes as the dream scene progressed and let me know where in the scene this occurred. 3. Tell me your last thought/feeling as the dream ended. I realize this is a lot of work. HOWEVER, I think you might be surprised by how much you can learn about yourself from a single scene. With kind regards, Guy Just a little history behind what might have caused the dream. My brother died of crib death when I was 2 and from what I know from my mom she is RH negative and my dad was positive so all of her births had some issues. My older brother who is 11 months older than me had severe retardation, I was a placenta previa baby and had to be resuscitated at birth, my brother a year younger is the one who died, however my mom also had my other brother when I was 3 years old and he had to have a full blood transfusion. My recurring nightmare was my dad and I in a cabin in the woods (I never went to a cabin), it was dark and dreary, I was in my room when I heard a baby crying so knowing I always helped my mom feed the baby I leaped up and looked around for my mom, I only found my dad who was staring out the window at the trees. I kept hearing the baby so I followed the sound (I think I knew I was dreaming because I didn't see my mom and knew we didn't have a cabin) I went outside and it was damp and wet with a lot of trees, I didn't see any neighbors. I kept following the sound wondering where it was coming from when I saw a box on the wall, like an electrical box and I opened it up and inside was a dead baby, yet the crying was piercing my ears. In my dream I told my dad and he told me I could never tell anyone. (My dad was on a Coast Guard cutter when my brother died) Spooked me more than any and it was always the same. It was one I couldn't control but it eventually went away but I heard crying babies for years, especially when I gave birth to my son.

[Serene]

Thank you Guy, but this is really all I remember. It was from the time when I was about 3-10 years old, it haunted me and I was afraid to tell it to anyone. Just kinda felt good to write it and be done with it once and for all. It bothered me even years after it stopped. Thank you for the offer I appreciate it.

[ghuntington]

Hi Serene, Sorry to have taken so long in replying. Below is my interpretation of your dream as if it was mine. Since dreams are for each of us to interpret on our own, if anything I say below doesn’t resonate with you, then simply discard it. So with that said, off I go. I am inside a masculine based belief compartment, which is made out of dead feminine, i.e. wood. The lighting is dark and dreary, i.e. I haven’t been paying spiritual attention to the beliefs this room is a symbol of. It’s time to “en-lighten” myself. My dream begins with me inside the masculine based belief compartment, so it’s what I call a “learning dream” where my higher self, i.e. the sun isn’t yet able to shine through my existing beliefs and assist me. I am either sitting or lying down when the dream begins, i.e. I need spiritual support to even see some of the effects of my beliefs. So who is the crying baby? My brother? No. A symbol? No. It’s an aspect of myself. I have found from my own dreams that I sometimes use an aspect of myself to show myself a spiritual portion of myself. The aspect I am using is a baby, i.e. I have some really “young” beliefs I am working with this aspect is a symbol of, i.e. I have a long spiritual road ahead of me to address the beliefs the aspect is a symbol of. Further, my aspect is crying i.e. it needs spiritual attention. My dad is in this scene. Is it him? No. He’s a symbol. Of my old masculine based beliefs. My old masculine is staring out through a gap in a symbol of one of my beliefs, i.e. a window, to the greater reality, which is where my feminine is, i.e. the trees. My aspect keeps calling me, so I follow the sound. I am now outside. So this scene is a teaching scene, i.e. my higher self can begin to teach me about myself. I am with lots of trees, i.e. my feminine. It’s damp and wet, i.e. water – another powerful symbol of my feminine. “I kept following the sound wondering where it was coming from when I saw a box on the wall, like an electrical box and I opened it up and inside was a dead baby, yet the crying was piercing my ears.” I follow the sound until I come to a symbol of a masculine based belief, i.e. a wall. On the wall is another symbol of a masculine based belief, i.e. a small box. This is actually a good sign i.e. the belief is now small and ready to be addressed. I then open up my belief and see a dead baby. So what’s the dead baby? Is it a symbol? No. Another life? Yes. So I am looking at myself in another life. I need to deal with my ideas of death and also spiritually wake up to the understanding that I m much more than my physical body, i.e. my many other lives. My aspect is still crying out for my spiritual attention. So then the scene changed… “In my dream I told my dad and he told me I could never tell anyone.” My old masculine is trapped by my old beliefs, i.e. the room where we began the dream. It’s all about command/control i.e. my masculine is afraid of my feminine. As a result, I build spiritual, mental and physical walls around me to protect myself from my feminine. Since my old masculine based beliefs don’t trust my feminine based abilities for things like spiritual communication and understanding, I am in denial of a part of myself. That’s what the aspect is a symbol of. It cries out to me to learn to listen to myself. My old masculine says, in effect, to deny it ever happened. Dear Serene, that’s my interpretation. I am wondering when the dreams stopped? Here’s my wild guess…it began to fade away when you began to learn to listen to yourself. With kind regards, Guy

[Serene]

Whoa! I am always interested in reading your interpretations because I am still flabbergasted how you can do this. On this one I would say it is very accurate and this dream faded when I felt I mastered my dreams and felt in total control. This was the one nightmare I could not manage to take control of, it pretty much destroyed my early childhood. Finally it just left. I would prefer to accept your interpretation than the one I had all my life! I just wish I had had that interpretation as a child . I can only HOPE yours is correct!

[ghuntington]

Hi Serene! So now, looking back, can you see why you incarnated with the family you choose before you incarnated? Do you understand why you kept sending yourself that nightmare over and over and over? Dreams are such powerful tools to learn about ourselves....eh? (I thought I'd throw in a bit of Canadian speech here!) With kind regards, Guy

[Superman1]

You started dreaming this at 3, when your new bro was born. But maybe the catalyst was 3 is when you became self-aware enough. With every baby having severe problems, it's no wonder you had nightmares. You are the only female and there were 3 brothers. So maybe this is partly why only your father was there, being male, staring at the family of healthy trees outside or beyond, where maybe the ground was saturated by emotion or tears. So the birth of your brother when you were 3 could be the catalyst after all. A young girls needs her mom most and she was missing in this scenario where you and him were isolated in dark misery. It looks like your power was affected by the overwhelming sadness and loss, understandably, maybe like the power of all the baby's was not flowing right, or ended in one, and maybe felt like it killed you. And it has the look of feeling boxed in, trapped. Was it just like a secret you did not want to know? Or was just so scary you didn't want to tell. It wasn't that you blamed your dad, was it, at such a young age? It probably eventually subsided when it became the past, as you grew up more. It also explains why you heard crying babies giving birth. For fear of it happening to yours.