I've been having the same problem. Not with the war scenario, but the theme over all.
I've been having nightmares that revolve around mass loss of human life, or me in one form or another (it's changed so much the form is meaningless anymore) actually taking human life in abnormally high proportions.
Dreams of war I've had, gotten used the them, over them, and come to terms with the reality of war it's self. I as a person, sorry if it sounds cold, care less about human death than animal. I'd rather see a human kick the can than an animal any day.
Recently, the last two months straight, the dreams have been getting worse. Two nights ago I was driving down a city street, I live in a city so it's hardly relevant, when a person fell out of the sky and hit the ground next to me. The way they hit, the thump, the crunch, blood was so real. At first I didn't care, nor did I care about the next three or four who did the same thing. Then I got curious about the raining people and looked up to see maybe twenty or so simply falling off the roof of the buildings. Much like the way they did in "The Happening" (I watched this movie a long time ago so again not relevant). It was beyond horrifying for me, for some reason. Thank god my alarm woke me up.
Last night was bad too but I think my dreams were related to a story I was reading before falling asleep. Still it was the same theme though...humans dying on a massive scale. Enough to bother me when I woke up. And I agree with spockman, this is beyond random dreaming.
Questions for you though spock.
Has any of your family been in war? Which one? Did they die, have you been thinking about them? Anything in your life relate to death or war in some way, obscure or not?
Any kind of conflict you know of in your future your worried about? Exams, business meeting, even a court date for a speeding ticket?
Has anyone close died? Had you started thinking about mortality before the dreams started?
If you can find a root for anyone of the aspects of your dreams your closer to finding the cause of them. 
I enjoy the prospect of analyzing another part of myself but this theme....it's beyond me. I don't understand why it's taken up so much of my time or introspection. Unlike you, spockman, yours seem to be getting better? It has to feel better knowing that your not ending lives and most can be saved. Mine are getting worse. They started as people killing themselves, other people killing other people. Then it was me as some kind of monster, and it's gradually escalated to being me more or less exactly who I am in the dreams.
Maybe someone could think of a question I haven't asked myself, I dunno. What bothers me most of all is that I can't control these dreams, I'm locked in. It's gotten to the point I'm sleeping through my alarm because the dream hasn't ended.
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