i think i know why

[Fetish]

cutters are not just cutting for a reason they are cutting for life or a true reality the pain is a gate into a trancedence a place of love but lessons on your self and words and symbols are carved into the flesh the true undermining thoughts when cutting you are in a state of nothing and sorrow or pain you feel alone and semisafe the mutilation of other things of a subsitude to what it really is but it still distracted the pain which is alway there and i can feel it know just layng until antother weakness open like it has today but i dont feel ijust feel sum for now

[Fetish]

i was in the use of sleep medication when i was doing it i dont care ive dont it with out it but i wasnt so ....in trancing CryingFormypity justin

[Fetish]

the pain from the scratchs is gone now there never was much but....now i feel empty and alone i want the pain back at least it was something

[Clairity]

Anytime you need to talk.. PM me.. I'll listen. You're my astral twin and I'll share your pain..

[Fetish]

thank god for long sleeve shirts

[Belisarius]

I have never understood how some people are so discontented with their life that they have to mutilate to feel something. I've never suffered from depression, but what I've had I've always welcomed with a strange sort of emotional masochism(sp?). I can see where some people might feel an extreme emptiness and loneliness(maybe they should become existentialists). I would just tell them that they have a whole life to see and feel, and that all they need to do to feel something is to open their eyes. Above all though I would just advise them to be cool 8) and if they don't want to be cool 8) , that's cool 8) too. 8)

[Rakkantekimusouka]

Wolfie, before I got my meds, and before I met Brett, I thought about cutting -- even tried it. Of course, I was too scared to press down hard enough, so I eventually gave up trying. Music is good for taking your mind off life. If you want I can send you some more upbeat tunes I have. I often used them to cheer myself up.

[mushroom]

hey man advice : try n get into happy music that also has meaning and get a hobby n pray u meet someone

[AirRick101]

I know deeply what you are talking about, I think. I've gone long without feeling much, feeling trapped in some state as if I feel like I'm in a meaningless dream I can't get out of. And I deliberately would rather feel pain than nothing at all. I've hit my walls and stuff, threatened suicide, yelled at people just to "Start something" and make them mad at me, so I could feel angry, at least. I haven't resulted to cutting, and I'm thankful I haven't. I was on meds for a while, but I didn't like their results, I wanted to do it on my own. They made me feel even less. But there's always a way out. Yes, like music! Music can take me 10 years back in time if it was a childhood song. It also gives me my personal fantasy in my head. Although the feelings after the song don't last long, it was sure one heck of a break in between.

[Yume]

Cutting yourself is a bad thing to do because the more blood you loose the less life you have left. You are only creating problems in the future for yourself. A lot of people don't like you doing that because you are wasting your life. I personally am a masochist to myself because I like to bruise myself because I can feel pleasure from it. It's not because I am depressed, but I like hitting and feeling the pain after I hit myself. When other people hit me it's not cool though. Music is soup for the soul. Like everyone has said it the rhythms and beats will cure you of your depression. It is really the number one way.

[Gwendolyn]

Greywolf, you aren't alone, I promise. I used to bee deeply disturbed, unhappy, alone, and I used to hate myself and my life. I was an empty and emotionless corpse. I used to cut.....It helped me to feel....At least the pain was there....It was real, and true.......Even though my parents screamed at me to stop, everytime they saw those marks on me, I couldn't stop, because it was an alternative to that terrible emptiness I was so accustomed to. But you know, as time went on, I came to realise that my perception was the reason why I felt so empty and alone. I had isolated myself from my loved ones, and friends and dove into this world of lonliness because I thought it would sheild me from internal pain. Well, when I got to where I was always hurt, or bleeding or cut, I looked at myself and said, "You know, this isn't worth it. I'm wasting my life, and I'm still in pain." Needless to say, I took up writing and reading as a substitiute for the knife. I learned that only I can make myself happy, and If I didn't nobody else would. Anyone can be happy if they choose to be. You can do it to....If you ever need to talk, PM me....I'm always available.