Well, everyone is to some degree, but consciously pursuing it?

My honest answer was insecurity, not just curiousity. I haven't grown up the most social person on a continual basis. My acquaintences were on and off, for months at a time each. I'd have continuous hang outs for some time, but some withdrawals.

People often remarked to me as smart, so I used that to be of redeeming value. I wanted to see through everything. I thought thoughts and questions that finally appeared to exceed all human knowledge. For years, I thought I had it all in psychology and philosophy, yet after all those years, I have these flashes and insights telling me "Nothing ever really changed. You've seen a lot, but you're still at the place you started from." Ever have that feeling?