My Thoughs, My Life

[Haz]

My Thoughts, My Life. Well, this is the post about my thoughts on life and stuff. If you read it you'll understand me better and all (hopefully), have different thoughts about life too. It's complicated this, so I'm going to start off with how I started thinking about it and all that. Anyway, have you ever been pushed around at school so much that you feel like you're on the edge? Maybe you haven't, maybe you have, but that's how all this started. With this constant pushing around and the combination of the death of close loved ones (my brother, grandad and great-grandma) you start thinking about weird things and want to output these feelings by someway. My 'outlets' were by: Music The Computer And Lucid Dreaming These helped me think about weird things (most importantly music was the one that made me think about it). Anyway, moving on.... What I think life is (and Limp Bizkit described it perfectly) is a little fucked up don't you think? We've got all these problems in the world. We have terrosrists ruining it for us. We have global warming facing us. A possible ujnknown time that the earth could end at any given moment. We have absolutely millions. Plus we have mysteries that we'll never possible solve and will just be with us until the end of eternity. The human race WILL eventually become extinct. There's no denying it, and when we do, we'll still have all these questions left within us. That's why the number one thing I'm most afraid of is death. I can't stand the thought of just leaving this world, never thinking again, just rotting away. For ETERNITY. I just CAN'T stand thinking about it. There are lots more problems in the world that we're facing that I can't be bothered noting right now. I like thinking this way because it gives me chance to think about thing like this (which are awesome, yet scary at the same time) and I won't be able to stand thinking about becoming a chav or something and never thinking about life and what's wrong with it. Now, my question is, does anybody else feel exactly the same way? Anyone? ~Haz

[Nirvana Starseed]

Ur not a zombie like everyone else. Congradulations. You have more experience. That was sad about your relatives dieing and what u said about school The world IS screwed up for several reasons. That makes life seem like it is screwed up. Most people dont know what is wrong or think there is nothing really wrong with our society. If they do they realize in some way they dont care. If they do they are to lazy to do anything or are distracted by whatever. If they do, they are not intelligent enough to do it right. A lot of progress has been made. its at the point now where everything is going to change and your going to see a result of this progress.The values that will engrain themselves, and the truth that will be realized will result in a totally different society. One that is alot better quality. I'm guessing that will happen over the next 100 years. Could be a smooth transition or a rough one. There is some people who are ready stand above it now and get the ball rolling. So I know how your feeling haz. thats all I can say I relate, and I see a reason for it all. u will eventually find what ur looking for its just a process. and that was cool u posted something like that i'd just thought I'd add my thoughts

[Nirvana Starseed]

By the way you'll be nicely suprised to realize death is just an illusion.