I felt like writing

[sephiroth clock]

When I was in fourth grade I made this wierd song that took the music from a destiny's child, but turned into some wierd sexual song. I rode around in my bicycle all day in my backyard thinking of the lyrics. Sometimes I get stuck in my own head. I start thinking about how my mind is concious of myself. Then I keep talking to myself over and over again about how I know I'm concious. I like people to think that I'm gay or bisexual. I used to think that I was psychic. I took my mom outside one day and told I had something important to tell her. I told her, "Mom, I'm psychic," She said something like everybody thinks they have special powers, but I don't think she believed me. When I was little my life really started sucking a lot. I would be crying all the time. Not whining like crying sad. I thought that my life sucking was my trade off for being psychic, so one day I told god to trade in my psychic powers for a good life, and then things got better. I broke my arm one time. I was playing popcorn on the bed with my cousin, popping up and down and then I flipped over the bedstand and did a full flip into the ground. My joint was totally out of line. I didn't even notice. I cried for a little bit but then I stopped. My parents said I was going to the hospital. I told them it wasn't that bad! Sometimes when I was little I would sit outside and think about bad words or gestures. I would swing on my swing and then I might say shit quietly and see if anything happened. I might even flick off the ground and wait to get punished. I'm trying to learn rhapsody in blue on the piano. I started a couple months ago. It really amazazes people. It's such a show off piece. I love that. I haven't really played it for anybody yet. I play it a hundred times a week. I go around and tap my fingers to it even when I don't notice I'm doing it. The theme song to forrest gump is the only piece of music I've heard in my life that can make me cry. It is the most enlightened and beautiful thing I've ever heard. I wonder if it's more emotional because I relate it to forrest gump or if it really is beautiful in itself either way it is lovely. I've had homosexual experiences before. It's really wierd when I think about it. I'm not gay at all. I did go to an all boys school for awhile, and maybe I got bored or something. It's so funny though. I joke about it with my friends. I'm always saying to them, hey, "you've... (done something graphic I wont state here). I love to play racquetball. I try not to care much about what other people think. I love faking innocent...

[nightowl]

you know..to be honest, i wasnt going to read that, so i pressed the back button, but then i changed my mind and went forward. Not sure what changed my mind. anyway I used to think that I was psychic. I took my mom outside one day and told I had something important to tell her. I told her, \"Mom, I'm psychic,\" She said something like everybody thinks they have special powers, but I don't think she believed me. When I was little my life really started sucking a lot. I would be crying all the time. Not whining like crying sad. I thought that my life sucking was my trade off for being psychic, so one day I told god to trade in my psychic powers for a good life, and then things got better.[/b] i think thats pretty cool. A tradeoff i just wanted to say that was actually a nice read. Kept me entertained and also i learned stuff from you which is a plus You're more interesting than i had thought

[Kaniaz]

Rename this "stupid things in your childhood that's you've never revealed to anybody"...it would be a great idea for a topic. ^^; I once got my finger stuck down the bath plughole. Wasn't paticulary nice at getting it out, and I had to go to hospital. It's fucking scary thinking back on it now, because I can tell I was put to sleep, (anashetic..)...I remember two faces in front of me with the doctor's gear on, and the mouth covering thing...they said like "it will be ok", comforting stuff, then the memories swam away sort of...got all fuzzy and fizzly and there's this gigantic black spot i cannot account for. I didn't remember this until something sorta triggered it... ...I still have the scar on my right hand's middle finger. It was ages ago, and when i prod it triggers pain on the thumb...odd.

[nightowl]

btw, i forgot to ask...why do you like to make people think that your gay or bisexual? o_O

[sephiroth clock]

nightowl- It's partly attention, nobody can figure it out. I think that sometimes I subconciously act gay without even noticing it. It's almost become like a habit... I just like people to be confused... my behavior's can be very conflicting along with what I tell them about my sexuality so it's just a game...

[sephiroth clock]

Once I was in the cafeteria with my friends laughing about something stupid. I was laughing so incredibly hard, my eyes were watering and my abs hurt. The lunch teacher made me go sit at a table by myself so I did, but I still couldn't stop laughing. I would just look over at my friend and crack up. Face was red and tears were running all over. Kids would walk by and then be like, "Trevor, Why are you crying?" and I was laughing so hard I couldn't even tell them that I was laughing. "Trevor whats wrong?", they all thought I was crying. I couldn't stop laughin. My teacher came to pick us up and by this time I really did start crying. I was crying because I couldn't stop laughing. It was the wierdest emotion ever. I'd be like crying then cracking up and then I'd start crying even worse because I couldn't stop, and then in the middle of it I'd just start cracking up and laughing. I started hyperventiallating and had to go to the nurse because I was really lightheaded. That was a bit longer but again... I felt like writing.

[sephiroth clock]

Once I was in the cafeteria with my friends laughing about something stupid. I was laughing so incredibly hard, my eyes were watering and my abs hurt. The lunch teacher made me go sit at a table by myself so I did, but I still couldn't stop laughing. I would just look over at my friend and crack up. Face was red and tears were running all over. Kids would walk by and then be like, "Trevor, Why are you crying?" and I was laughing so hard I couldn't even tell them that I was laughing. "Trevor whats wrong?", they all thought I was crying. I couldn't stop laughin. My teacher came to pick us up and by this time I really did start crying. I was crying because I couldn't stop laughing. It was the wierdest emotion ever. I'd be like crying then cracking up and then I'd start crying even worse because I couldn't stop, and then in the middle of it I'd just start cracking up and laughing. I started hyperventiallating and had to go to the nurse because I was really lightheaded. That was a bit longer but again... I felt like writing.

[sephiroth clock]

One time when I was real little I decided to I wanted to run away. I was going to do it "normally" but then I thought I would just flush myself down the toilet and go through the sewers. It was really emotional. I locked the door and stepped into the toilet and then I pushed the flush button and waited. It was flushing and I was waiting, and then... nothing happened. I flushed again and nothing happened. I thought I was going to get sucked down into a little wormhole thing. So I got out and took a shower.

[nightowl]

^^^ XD! you had quite an imagination