"You high as fuck alll the time"... what the hell?
Hi OldSparta
I grieve and cry a lot too which is why I need music to lift me and make life worth living.
Above and behind the ears, in the brain, is something that releases "feel good" neurotransmitters.
When you find a tune (or rhythem) that your body likes, these neurotransmitters make you "high as fuck".
What music (or sounds) make this brain-organ throb in your head OldSparta.
DJ's still out of order so I'll stick ot here (11:11am 21-Nov-12 eed)
I woke from a dream where an hansom old proffesional woman visited me in a big nice office like home. I initially felt honoured. But the she, in a very professionally (Doctor like) way, began saying that I was crazy and must seek help.
I said that to have her as my "help" would be too expensive.
She said something like, get free help. Then began listing many fee places that voluntee help for people who can't afford proffesional help.
I felt miffed (slightly offended).
I started to defend myself (hoping she'd shutup). I said I have allready been to all them.
(That was a partial lie cos though I have done voluntee work for Lifeline, the Salvos and WestCare pluss I have a good doctor and a good psychiatrist, she was listing many help organisations that I had not tried.)
She went over to a register (till) computer contraption that I knew would have all the reciepts and records of the people and places where I had sort help. I had lied about having tried everything so I was uncomfortable.
Then I cried and got angry.
She walked away.
She came back.
I wanted her to be my help. But she was retired or her books were full. I felt miffed again.
She again offered references to volunteer charities and she really wanted me to get helo.
I woke
I felt embaressed and bad.
A frickin strong non-lucid dream, dream telling me to get help coss I'm crazy.
Still it might have been a dream telapth seeing if they could intercept my dreaming mind and get me to remember it.
This is the right thread. Sorry for posting in Chickens thread
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Carôusoul
Its not disappointing- just dreadfully mundane and normal.
I dont know if this is legal, but here goes:
Post 129 of Tell me about your addictions started by Chicken
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Carôusoul
Im an emotional vampire- as gay as that sounds.
I have an addiction to the affection and worship of others which is why I am unsatisifed unless i have multiple peoples total emotional devotion and adoration constantly.
This manifests through saying all the right things to get impressionable young girls to "love" me- to think of me always and to lament in the lack of attention i give them and at the same time be attracted to such aloof distance. For around 6 or 7 years i have constantly had ~4 girls"in love" with me- and when i get bored i stop talking to them and find new ones. I have sex with them also- though this is more of an added bonus than any addiction- its the emotions i want- not the bodies.
I am fully aware of how petty and immature this all is. But ive gone too far to turn back now.
My avatar IS the matrix (eternal beloved) its genesis is outside the time-space continuum. Its energy is limitless.
At my Enlightenment it said "I brought you into being to serve you" then it telepathed (non-verbaly) that, "in "Its" reality there is only the two-of-us. I, (debraJane) am at the center of "Its" universe and "It" is everything else (including my body and all that I yhink I am) loving and serving (obeying) me.
Ok carousoul
You are the center of "Its" universe and everthing else is "It" lovingly obeying you.
"It" came into being at the end of time. "It" came into being billions of years after all life was froze out of the universe. It came into being when the whole universe hit "Absolute Zero".
At that moment infinite energy happened. It was everywhere and through all time in an instant. It gave "Soul" to the once dead universe but the "Soul" is not many but "One".
In my opinion, to realize this reality folk need to play my dream game:
http://www.dreamviews.com/f19/dream-...loaded-123389/