World Peace!

[Sevenstrings]

I have a vision, I want to see world peace, I want an end to all abuse, femicide, destruction, bigotry, rascism, fascism , I want an end to all the trickery, materialism, nationalism, militarisation, jealousy, suspicion, I want an end to all of the cheating that is going on, exploitation, sexual abuse, child molesters and dream crashers, I want an end to all negativity, depression, psychoses, suicides, inferiority complexes, lack of self worth and above all lack of self love. And I want a world without war!!!!!! Never again war!!!!! I was a hater in the past because i didn´t trust people and I had the feeling that some of them had the worst intentions for us, I expressed this time and time again, but there was only self inflicted pain and misery, my path took me to the most hellish depts of my entire being and I hated so much! I kept on hating and I kept on legitimizing all of this because it felt so good! I guess you could say I was some kind of a demon, because of pointing out similarities I focussed on the differences we had, still I had sometimes the flashes of unity that binds all of mankind together and that grew bigger through the past years, so you can say I have some angelic traits in my soul. Every time life smashed me to pieces because of the diabolic expressions I made, life took me in its peacefull hands to heal me and that is exactly what is going on since a while. I evolved from a hater to a lover of mankind! Since a while I have fantasies about world peace and how this can be achieved through the medium of music, I am in a band with the name Lilith Moon and I know that with the grace of the Lord I will bring about a revolution in this rotten world. There is war going on everywhere, Gaza, Ukraine, Sudan and we are feeling unsafe in our world, more and more. This has to stop, this really has to stop. I find myself on the crossroads of divinity or hell now, I am looking for the sweet Godly love since June 2nd 2007, but I am scared, scared to lose my identity as a man, as a guy, and I hope this fear is unfounded, I want to be a loving man, a loving guy and still achieve the goals I have set in this life, today I found out that I have a mission different from the mission I thought to have had, instead of bringing war and destruction, I can be an example of hope and love for the world with my band, I imagine a world tour if we get famous with my dreamed support act and co musicians of Delilah Bon, an incredible talented band with a message, not just a band with lyrics that are mainstream, but with a real message and we, Lilith Moon, we have the same, we also come with a message for the world. I know, I have a gut feeling that this is possible and I understand that making this desire public I invite much opposition from the worlds of beings who don´t want to see a world of peace and love, but rather see a world of division and hatred, but hey.........I am aware of these guys since a few years, it is a fight against God also, it is a battle against John´s Revelations in the Bible, which is only talking about war, it is a battle against the prophecies of Nostradamus who said that his prophecies of war will last until the year 3797, fuck that man!!!! I don´t wanna see the world having war for another 1772 years!!! To be honest, I am sick and tired of people getting killed for some gain of land, or for some religious shit, I am sick and tired of war, fuck war, man!! I envision a world of peace and love, where we all accept each other the way we are, where we can travel to every nook and corner of the globe safely, I envision a world where we treat and see each other as brothers and sisters, mothers and fathers, where we respect each other, where we respect nature and where we don´t kill animals anymore for food, I am a vegetarian since 1994 and I still live! I know I have to make sacrifices because I have to go against the written scriptures of the world religions and prophets. I know this because I am doing this fighting for many years and it is very difficult and I hope not impossible because doesn´t God want us to live peacefully together? Doesn´t God wants us to love one another? I cannot worship a God who wants war, just because it has been written down through the ages and there is the paradox.........I need God to make my plans executable, so I meditate on the same God with the desire to have world peace and that same God is also the one who wants war! I am fighting against God for world peace! And that is fucking difficult! i am just a mortal! But with the right intentions now! I also have to say that I was born ignorant, I have only some knowledge of past lives, I don´t know how the universe was created and I don´t know how it will end and I have no telepathic abilities, but the only thing that I do know for sure is my character and I know it it´s strong and it never gives up, I have been kicked down many times by life and by my own mistakes, and I have a lot of bad karma coming from those past lives that I am aware of, and I have to neutralize still some killings I did and abuses I did, so it is a hard and difficult journey which I am undertaking. And sometimes God helps me, I get these fantasies of becoming famous with the band and I get these fantasies of how to change the world, how to enter world peace, it brings goosebumbs and chills on my body and many, many tears to my eyes, my heart softens each and every time and because of this I get the strenth to carry on, even when I hit the lowest point in spiritual and normal life. Just take last night for example, I couldn´t sleep because of the nightmarish fantasies I had of being in a talkshow, cursing and shouting to the host and the guests who didn´t agree with me, it was hell!!!! The fantasies wouldn´t stop, however I tried my best to stop them. Just terrible, and today, after I had given a yoga class, with no sleep, these beautiful and loving and ecstatic fantasies cropped up in my mind, don´t know where they were coming from, and I cried a bit and........not because of being famous, but because of being famous with a message, with a goal, world peace! And seeing everybody being happy! And to conclude this post, I just meditated and during the meditations session I got the irresistable desire to write this post, so I broke my meditation to write it and now I am one and a half hour later and am finishing this post, it is late and I have to sleep, but one way or another, I can´t, so I will resume the session and I wish you all a good night! Always look at the positive side of things!

[Sevenstrings]

So I can´t sleep, it´s the second night in a row that I can´t sleep and I want to add to this post that I need the love of God to make it all happen, then it will be allright and one more thing: Faith Sees the Invisible Believes the Incredible and Beholds the Impossible I always keep this in mind when things are not going my way and I lose hope, it´s a huge battle with a lot of mood swings. Goodnight!