For the past few days, my experiences were really strange. I've had my first LDs during one night, about 4 days ago, I think. As I explained in my DJ, I was kicked right out of both. "Ok", I thought. I'll just try to do that again. But no, no. The problem I have now is - I can't sleep enough. But don't you go thinking that I don't get enough time to sleep. I do! The strange thing happening is - My body stopped wanting to sleep that much. When I had those LDs, I slept for about 10 hours and I got lucids from about 6:30 am to 7:30 am. I went to sleep at about 10 pm or so. BUT, since I had the pleasure of (briefly) experiencing lucidity, it's like my brain is trying even harder to prevent me from getting more. The night after that, I barely remembered one dream (which is strange with me, cos I have great dream recall, 4 dreams a night perfectly detailed - usually no problem). Then another night - no dream recall. Just maybe a second of a dream that vanished after a while. Then another night. Exactly the same. To make things worse, like I said, I can't get enough sleep. If I go to sleep at midnight, I wake up at 6 am and no matter how hard I try, I am unable to fall asleep again, even if there is nothing preventing me. I just lie there, staring at my closed eyelids like an idiot. If I go to sleep at 10 pm, I wake up at 4 am, same situation.
.... WHY?? The problem is the only chance for me to become lucid is probably when I sleep in the morning, but suddenly, after the LD experience, I am not allowed to. Is it possible that for some reason, my brain is deadly serious about my lucidity, that I'm not supposed to be doing LDs? It took me over 45 days to get like 5 seconds of lucids, after all, and now this. And will I have to work on my dream recall AGAIN?
I hope this is just a bunch of coincidences.
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