SP or not? Can't reach LD.
I've tried this at least 10 times for about one to two hours each time. Tonight I laid down at 1 AM. I closed my eyes, started counting. After an unknown amount of time, my arms and legs began to feel heavy.After some time, the darkness behind my eyelids became a void. At around that same time, it began to feel like I was being pulled, shrunk, pulled, like my body was growing then getting smaller. Sometime later, it began to get harder to breathe, like there was a weight on my chest. At around that same time, I couldn't feel my arms or legs at all, but I knew that they were there. I lingered in this state for an unknown amount of time, unable to proceed. When I tried to focus on the darkness behind my eyelids, my eyes kept blinking and I was afraid that I would accidentally open them. After roughly two hours of attempting this, the pipes in my bathroom make a racket that startled the living crap out of me. I could feel each beat of my chest, more than I've ever felt it before. Since I had laid there for about two hours, I decided to call it quits and got up to check what time it was. It was 3:28 AM. My mouth was dry and my limbs were and still are tingly.
I've had no hallucinations. There was one time when I first started and had laid my hands on my chest that I thought they were bound there, but that was about it. The only time I really ended up hallucinating was when I tried this thing called the Ganzfeld effect and thought I was laying on a raft in the ocean. Anyway, nothing interesting's happened and it's really frustrating because a couple of years back, from the time I was, like, 7 to 12, I was able to enter lucid dreams at will. Now? Nothing at all.
Does anyone have any suggestions?