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I fell asleep at around 12am. Rather late for my taste.
I am sure I woke up through out the night but I don't remember exactly when or what woke me up.
I fell asleep quickly and I didn't prepare the machine. The batteries were dead. Tonight is another opportunity I will not miss.
Oddly, last night i felt very nervous to sleep.
I did have dreams. I know I was talking to someone but I don't remember who or what I was saying.
I was so nervous last night that I feared meditating. Feared that something may happen to me. So i resisted.
In anycase, Ill try tonight. Face my fears.

After meditating last night I woke up 6 times throughout the night
I went to sleep at 10:30
Woke at 12 something. I can't remember.
Dreamed
I saw two metallic color cubes. I saw the first one coming at me slowly and it either exploded or flattened out and long spindles came at me. I looked away. When I looked back the cube or ever it had changed into was gone. At the same time, I heard in the real world something had opened my door. I grew scared of the coincidence of a metallic cube with long sharp rod looking things coming at me and then something in my room. I refused to wake up and turned back to where the cube had been. Now there was a second cube behind where the first cube had been, slowly coming towards me. I felt nervous and I woke up. My cat had pushed the door ajar and was looking at me trying to wake me with concern. Round Large eyes. I think I had screamed or said something loudly to have brought her attention in my room. Also, I think I heard myself say something in the real world when I looked away from the first cube. It was 2am.
I woke at 4am
I was at sixflags after hours. Yet everything was on. I saw some people I recognized on a rollarcoaster. I wasn't on it. Then everyone wanted to go home and I said. Ill stay and go beyond the park. And when I did I ended up at a school. I dreamed that I was then auditing some Caribbean school classes. I was happy I didn't take the class because it was too difficult. A professor was checking lecture notes. Gave an approving nod at mine. Then I asked her why. With her look she told me the amount of care I put in her class work shows in my note. Then why I take a seat. She glares at me as if saying why did you get satisfied with just that.
Then I started I changed my outfit to something Black coat, white pants, and debated on wearing white fluffy boots or plain black ones. And I said I'll wear the black ones because it makes sense- black coat, then white pants, then black shoes. I saw a red slide and an unfinished red staircase.
I woke at 6:30am
I woke at 7:00am
I woke at 8:00am
I have a sleeping head monitor. Ill wear it tonight and see when I am achieving REM.
However this may interrupt my sleep. One week Ill wear it and one week I won't . Alternate.
I woke up feeling incredibly relaxed. Best I slept in a while. Strange. Got up did my things. Didn't feel lethargic like I usually do.

Since I was about 9 years old. I always felt there was more to spirituality then what I was told.
I started meditating and I discovered a vibration on my forehead. And I would be able to summon this vibration when ever I pleased. At around the same age I had moved into a new house. I felt a lot of spirits and things would move in this house. Sometimes when I focused in on this vibration I heard a lot of voices while awake and meditating and when I would fall asleep I would wake several times throughout the night.
When I wouldn't hone into this vibration I wouldn't hear anything at all. At some point I knew that what i was experiencing was beyond me. So I stopped honing into this vibration.
Years had passed and I started researching what was this vibration I used to hone in on. What I come across is that this is a third eye. that does vibrate . that does allow a person into a spiritual realm.
So now I want to use this to guide me to our beginning and our end or to our creator.
Once 3 months back while meditating I saw in my mind a vivid blue and yellow ring. Violet haze around. And these rings were rather large. I haven't seen anything since then but I want to keep trying. I had a feeling that I need some sort of direction from someone who has done this before. I am still researching. I hope I can find my way back to my body if my spirit and mind are else where. I know this sounds abnormal. And I have a bac. degree in biology. So I know how awkward this sounds like. Still, it is something that is real. These experiences have not just been my own but some aspects are found, on other accounts on other forums as well, people I have never met.