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This was a short lucid, but it was my first lucid night mare

My family and I went to a pet shop to get a puppy. When we got there I found one. We went up to the register to buy it, and the person put the dog in a box. When we got home I noticed that the house was a lot different from normal, but I still didn't become lucid. Then when we got inside we put the puppy on a table and got something to eat. When I got back the box was gone. I went on a look for it, but eventually it was night time and I still hadn't found it. I was sad and ashamed that I had lost. Then I decided to check my moms room. My mom was there with her back turned to me looking out the window. I asked her if she could go check the closet, but she said she was too scared to. I was puzzled by this and then started to debate with myself whether it was a dream or not. I did a RC and found that it was. However right when I did the Rc and became lucid a bright light flashed and my mom had turned a round furious and screamed "we don't become lucid in these dreams." Then she attacked me. I fell down onto a bed, but kicked her away Befor she could do anything. Then I think I was very close to waking up because the dream turned to just pictures that would just flicker. I was able to feel the bed I was sleeping in and my closed eyes. I tried to keep the dream, but just woke up.

• A tactical/strategic game involving physics and a spinning Christmas tree. You want to outsmart your opponent, so by predicting your opponent's move that will change your move. But since the opponent can predict your move, that will change his move, which might change his move, which will then change your move, will change his move, which will change his move, which will change your move, which will change his move, and so on. It's kind of like chess, but with some weird add-ons. 5:00 AM

I was in a dorm room playing the new Super Smash Bros with some friends. After I lost (which happens a lot for me, unfortunately), I was talking with a friend and showing him some new apps on my phone. One of them was involving 50 Shades of Gray with characters from Legend of Zelda. I tried to keep him from seeing it, but it kept popping up. I told him I was only interested in the plot, and he gave me a disapproving look. I then played another app, which involved a flying bunny stuck in a pinball machine.

(WBTB here)

I was at a real life DreamViews Academy, a school dedicated to teaching the art of lucid dreaming. Thankfully, I was mostly lucid from the start (because missing lucidity in the college of lucidity would've been embarrassing…). My friends J and D were with me, and they had no idea what this place was. I explained to them all about DreamViews and what lucid dreams were, including the fact that we were in one right now. They seemed to have trouble wrapping their heads around it.

The scene changed to some kind of parking garage. To demonstrate that I could do anything in this dream, I held out my two fingers like a gun, pointed them at a random car, and “shot”. There was a loud bang, and then the car exploded. Both of them seemed astonished, but soon the dream kind of faded.

All three of us woke up in the middle of the floor back in the academy. I turn to look at them. “So that was a lucid dream.”
J turns back. “I think we might still be in a dream.”
D chimes in. “No, I think that’s impossible. We just woke up, right?”
Curious, I do a quick nose-plug and find I’m still dreaming. “J’s right, we’re still dreaming.” Unfortunately they don’t seem too interested anymore and start talking about going to see some movie. I have other plans, however. “You guys go, I still have some things I want to do.”

They head out a glass door to the street, while I turn and head down some stairs into this large library area. The entire architecture was gold-colored stone, and the floor tile was a checkerboard style. I walked to a clearing and then started to summon Vi. However, as soon as I said “Vi”, a brown-haired girl sitting at a table with two guys in front of me turned around to see me.

The feeling I felt when I saw her is fairly indescribable. I felt this strong, pleasant feeling in the pit of my stomach, like an instant connection with her. It wasn’t like any kind of sexual desire, but it just felt like when I saw her, I felt happy - too happy, in fact, as I completely forgot everything I wanted to ask or say to her. I kind of froze because of how beautiful she seemed. It felt less like I was meeting a new friend, and more like I was trying to ask a pretty girl out for a first date. I finally mustered up some words.

“Vi? So you’re my dream guide?”
She gave me a confused and somewhat disapproving look. “Yeah.” She seemed like she was not amused.
“Oh, okay cool…” My mind was a total blank. The awkward silence felt like an eternity. “Well, I just wanted to tell you that you’re beautiful.”
Her expression didn't really change at all. Completely embarrassed, I walked away.

I felt like a complete idiot. Maybe she wasn't my dream guide. But then how do you explain the feeling that I had? Then again, why did she seem so uninterested in helping me? Why did she seem to be judging me? Wait, this is my dream, why am I so scared of what one of my DCs thinks of me? I have to go back.

By this time, I had already walked a ways away from Vi, so I decided to fly back to her. I tried to take off, but didn’t get very high, so I stopped, bent down, and shot up fist-forward like Superman. This got me much higher, and after a few more arm flaps, I was able to stay aloft. I turned back towards the tables, but the dream scene changed.

I was now in a game of Halo, wearing one of the suits from the game. My teammates and I were waiting for the fight to begin. I noticed that if I looked right at my teammates, their names would appear floating above their heads, just like in the game. I quickly set out on a search for Vi. After checking all of my other teammates, I finally found her. She was wearing a red suit which seemed much thinner and more feminine, much like Samus’s suit from Metroid.

“Good, you’re still here. I was scared that you didn’t like me or something.”
Before she could say anything though, the alarm sounded, and the match had begun. I started to run forward, and immediately shot two enemies. Another enemy appeared around the corner and shot at me, and there was no way for me to dodge the bullet. Before it hit, however, I heard Vi shout “Wait!” and the scene froze. It then rewinded back to the start of the match. Vi held me back from running this time. “This game isn’t all about brute force. Let me teach you a little about stealth.”

We ran along a wall in the shadows, making sure that no one was coming. We crept along like this for a while, until we heard footsteps coming from down the hallway. I started to pull out my sword, but Vi grabbed me and pulled us both into the wall, literally. We both turned into a kind of drawing on the wall, like from Legend of Zelda: A Link Between Worlds (if you haven’t figured it out by now, I play a lot of video games). We were hidden in the shadows well enough that no one noticed when they ran by. We came back out of the wall and kept moving forward.

I came to a small area outside. This now looked less sci-fi and more like current architecture. I was in a small alley-like thing between two buildings. There was a balcony overhead, and small rocks covering the ground like some kind of garden decoration. I realized Vi was no longer near me, so I pulled out my pistol to be safe. One enemy appeared on the balcony, so I shot him. He fell to the ground, and some bystanders that were walking by stopped and yelled at me for killing him. Another enemy appeared behind them, so I shot him too. They continued to yell at me, until the dream eventually destabilized and I woke up.

In my meditation session today I realized that I have become to result-oriented and that is probably because I have this blog and want to prove myself. However I have forget the purpose of practising which is to do it for the practise itself and to not have expectations or hopes, just do it and observe whatever that is happening just like in meditation.

I met up with the girl last night and "had fun", and my mental energy just went down the drain, so I am in a period of mental recovery.. But we'll see if having a "release" affects my dream practise.

Tonight I am not going to set an alarm, I am just going to use the arm method and listen to the gateway experience as I do so and just be happy for the fact that I am still taking action.

"Anaken"? An event somewhere. It was a grass area. A familiar place but not sure where. Manila? We were looking for a jeep. It's night, so I'm worried I might get lost or end up in a bad place. I imagined a place along the road that's dark. There are trees on both sides. I decided to tag along with others. I think Amben and Sacha were there.

It's... dawn? Or late afternoon? We were walking near a plaza area. There are stuff for sale. Grey colors, dim, hazy.

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Notes:

- It was clearer when I woke up but I keep going back to bed to sleep some more.
- I slept around 11 p.m. Woke up at around 10 a.m., but I kept going back to sleep before that.
- Slept to Kelly McGonigal's default mode meditation.

1. I was with my friends Dylan, Alex, Trey, and Patrick. We were all sitting inside of Dylan's car and of course, Dylan was driving it. Somehow, Dylan and Alex were drunk. Dylan pulled up to a gas station and told us that he needed to get some gas. Once he drove up to the gas dispenser he turned the car off and got out of the car. Alex then got out of the car as well and so did I just because. Patrick and Trey stayed in the car.
As Dylan filled up his car, Alex started talking about stupid nonsense stuff, and it didn't surprise me since he was drunk. I turn around and open the door to see what Trey and Pat are doing and I notice that they are gone. I now become semi-lucid and I put my attention back on my drunk buddies. As I turn around back to Dylan and Alex I now see a huge sinkhole in the ground right in front of us. The area below the sinkhole isn't earth though, it's actually what looks to be the inside of a sewer system, but instead of crap flowing through it there was only crystal clear water.
"Dude, lets go in there" Alex said. We all then descended into this system. As I was stepping down through the crumbled rocks and debri from the sinkhole, I slipped a little bit and ended up sliding down the small rock slope in front of me. I get back up once I stop sliding and I now find myself standing on some sort of sandstone tile. It's actually really nice too. Alex goes in front of me and Dylan and seems pretty eager about the entire situation. We step another level lower off of the sandstone and into the water way. I can feel the fresh water flowing around my feet.
Not far ahead of us I can see a tunnel, and it is perfectly lit. The tunnel however, was completely filled with water. This obviously didn't make sense considering the water could've flowed out since there was nothing stopping it. Next thing I know, Alex goes into this tunnel and starts swimming through it. There is no air in it whatsoever. I follow behind him out of curiosity and Dylan follows me. Now we are all holding our breath trying to swim through this tunnel.
Being pro-active, I look ahead of Alex to see how far we have to swim, and also to see if the tunnel opens up at all. Just as I do this I notice that there are a few white pipes sticking out from the walls of this tunnel, and I know that we aren't going to be able to swim past these because it is too tight. Alex sees this as well and he immediately starts reverse-swimming. I say that because, since the tunnel was so small, he wasn't able to turn around so he just started swimming back while facing forwards. It was quite an unusual sight.
I don't want to get kicked in the face so I immediately start reverse-swimming as well. I know that Dylan will get the catch that he needs to swim back too so I am not worried about him not knowing. It turns out that Dylan did know what was going on and he starts reverse-swimming as well. Quickly we make it out of the tunnel and into fresh breathable air. "Holy shit dude, I couldn't breathe" Alex told us. "Yeah dude neither could I" I told him. I suddenly notice that I really can't breathe well within the dream. I then wake up in waking life to find out that one of my nostrils were closed and I really couldn't breathe out of it.

2. I was walking through my highschool when I suddenly spot my old friend Daniel. I catch up to him and ask, "Hey man, could you hook me up with a few tabs of acid?". "Yeah, I know a guy. He's selling one hit of acid for 200 dollars" he tells me. "What!?! 200 dollars?!? That's crazy. Can you get him to lower the price" I ask him. "I can try to get you one for 100 dollars, but no lower than that" He says. I decline his offer and tell him thanks anyway and then walk off. There was no way I was paying that much for one hit of acid.

4am coffee from 2 tbsp grounds with milk and sugar.

#416 - WILD

I wake at some point and try DEILD phase tech, but this time I was surprised by entering straight into it, skipping all the usual OBE stuff. I was only mildly lucid at first and thought that I was only seeing strong HI. I thought that I wasn't fully there and was trying to convince myself that I was dreaming, hoping that my dream time would catch up to my expectations. However, during the entire experience, I was already fully immersed in the dream and everything was extremely vivid. I even had the thought at some point that caffeine always makes my dreams more visually vivid.

I am standing next to a refrigerator in a kitchen that looks like the Smith's house, but my coworker bro Brandon is there. I see the fridge is so vivid and I take a closer look to stabilize — like I needed to. I note the eggshell texture on the door and the brownish fake wood handle. There is some chrome and I expect to see my distorted reflection. It's not there at first, but I do a double take and there I am. I feel like my eye are open extra wide and I can't believe how vivid the dream is. I look around for a moment and realize that I am in fact fully in the dream. Unfortunately, it's at this point that something external wakes me.

I had another vivid dream about swimming in an ocean and a shark bit my knee where I had been having pain in waking life. Strangely, my knee feels a thousand times better today.

Fell asleep 9pm - Woke up 12am

Vague dream recall. Walking in the woods next to busy motorway and there is a kind of parking bay. There is a lot of luggage and stuff lying around and in my mind I am told this stuff belongs to some golfers. There is a purse further down the path as I'm led further away from the motorway and deeper into the woods. I pick up the purse and take all the money from it which is three ten pound notes, one twenty pound note and a handful of change. I go off the path and hide the purse in the woods.
I was suppose to attend a dinner tonight for my little cousins birthday but had no money to buy her anything or pay for my food.

Vaguely remember being at my Dads house then attending the mentioned dinner party in my dream. Everyone from both sides of my family was there but I didn't see some of them although people were asking me did you not see your gran she was standing just there. I replied no.

After the dinner I was back at my dads and there was a party. There was a dog a strange dog I don't know and we were trying to get my little 4 year old niece to clap it but the dog was grumpy and growling so it was put out in the back garden.

I shouted at my Dad calling him names because I thought he was taking the piss out of me by smirking and saying "why don't you get a lift home from them?" I had no idea who the couple leaving in their car was but was furious at my Dad and began to leave.

I left shortly after this and began walking a familiar path home from my Dads house and it is not far here I remember the money I stole earlier. On retrieving it from my pocket I notice it is scrunched up into tiny balls. I then see an old friend we called 'limpit' walk by and I say hello and ask how he is doing? In the dream he said he had a kid who lives with it's mother and by the direction he was headed he now lives close to my dad. I then wake up.

1. I am at teachings that are being given by Khenpo Tsultrim Gyamtso Rinpoche. I am in line with my wife waiting to enter the room that the teachings will be held in. I am very excited. I tell my wife that Khenpo is a really amazing lama. "I know" she says, "you keep telling me!" She seems annoyed with me. Later I am walking around the building that the teachings were given in. It appears to be alot like my high school, with metal panel walls. and windows every so often that break up the panels. I am looking for Khenpo's room so that I can ask him a question. I find his room, there are many attendants in the room, but they all look like hospital staff. There is a hospital bed in the room along with many medical monitoring devices such as IV drip lines.
Khenpo Tsultrim Gyamtso Rinpoche:


2. I am riding my bike across town at night. I am in an area of a town where there are many old warehouses and abandoned factories. I notice some "gutter punks" off in a field in front of an old warehouse. I cross some railroad tracks. I turn left in front of an old warehouse building. I am now in a large fenced in area in front of the warehouse. I notice a bum/gutter punk guy approaching me from the warehouse. I get nervous and speed up, but reach a point where i am stuck between the approaching bum and the fence. The bum catches up with me and I greet him nicely. I get a close up view of his face. His face is narrow, almost un-naturally, his skin is dark and sallow. He is wearing a mugger hat and his hair is poking out from underneath it. He tells me to give him my bike. "Come on man!, you aren't really going to take my bike!" I tell him. He insists and threatens to stab me if I do not comply. I give him the bike. He then asks me for my car keys. I tell him he took my bike and that should be enough. He insists on me giving him my keys. I tell him he is welcome to have them, but my car is back at my house and he does not know where that is. He seems satisfied with my answer. He rides off on my bike and I run ahead and cut through a building to get ahead of him. I end up standing on a little pile of dirt as he approaches. I kick him in the face and he falls off the bike. I jump down off the pile of dirt and bash his head a couple of times with a rock. I am worried that I seriously hurt him, but realize i just knocked him out. I take my bike back and ride off. I am then in a car with wife telling her that my bike got stolen. She seems disappointed as I must not have taken some of her advice to lock it up or something. Next I tell her how I retrieved the bike and she seems a bit relieved.

Here’s a couple of Dream Induced Lucid Dreams (DILDS):

I was standing in a room, which I didn’t recognize, beside my father in-law’s cousin, who’s currently very sick in the hospital with cancer (in waking life). Seeing him standing there made me instantly lucid. A few seconds later my vision started to fade, and I tried spinning, but I woke up.

In this second dream, I was laying in the box of my pick-up truck, at night, staring up at a light standard. Then a doe, a deer (a female deer) peaked it’s head up over the edge of the right hand, rear fender and stared at me. I tried to ignore it, but it just kept staring. I found this a bit irritating, so I looked at the dang thing and said, “Why don’t you get lost, and go bother somebody else!” Instantly, the deer turned into a beautiful, long haired, blonde woman, who I didn’t recognize! She had this look of sadness and insult on her face from what I said, and she immediately turned around and walked away. Seeing a deer transform into a beautiful woman made me think that maybe this is a dream. Hmmm, then boom, I was lucid!

I quickly stood up in the truck box and saw the woman walking around the park car beside me. I then realized I was at my home town’s shopping mall. I remembered my dream intent to meet with my daughter, so I said, “Hey, please find my Daughter, and I tell her I’m looking for her!” Well, quite unexpectedly, the woman spun around with excitement and happiness all over her face, and she came running right up to the side of the truck box and reached both her arms up towards me! So I kneeled down, leaned forward, and hugged her, and then she gave me a big kiss on the lips, but then woke from all the excitement. Wonder who she was?

Last night I remember dreaming. I just can't remember the dream itself. I remember realizing that I was dreaming and doing Rc's. every time I'd touch my fingers to my palms they'd fade/go through. I remember being excited that I had become lucid twice in a 24hr Period. I just wish I could remember the dream itself
(Side note: I remember a sapphire blue wine glass. It fell off of a table and shattered into a few big pieces. I tried to make the shattered glass vanish. It would always reappear a few feet away, each time I made it vanish. This lucid dreaming, thing is harder than I thought )

I realized I was asleep, it feels like almost instantly. I remember thinking "ok, I'm asleep. I gotta keep knowing I'm asleep" then I remember floating from my bed, down the hall, & to my door. I knew exactly where I wanted to be. I wanted to fly to my ex boyfriends house. I couldn't grasp the door-knob to turn it, so I remembered trying the window. I thought "why isn't this working." I looked at my hands to keep myself aware that I was asleep. And then I thought to physically make the window longer and roll out. It worked and I was still aware I was asleep, but I noticed too that my body was kinda hard to control and that things would fade to black, I even tried looking at my hands when things were black but couldn't see anything. After that I remember being in another part of my town in the opposite direction of where I needed to go. I was a the local walmart in the parking lot. I tried to fly but couldn't at first. The only thing that seemed to help me was focusing on a small whisp of cloud in the sky and trying to visualize myself floating up to it. It worked but I still found it hard to control my dream body. I was kinda stiff. I guess after that I slipped out of the lucidity of it. I'm pretty bummed I didn't get to my destination but I'm excited that I was able to remember at least one tip and it seemed like I was able to quickly realize that I was asleep.

Extra info: the colors weren't very vibrant. They were there just felt like a gray haze was over everything. Being outside it was gray and gloomy, like before a thunderstorm, but there wasn't big black clouds

Non lucid dream that happened after lucid dream:
I was at My ex's, sleeping in a separate bed. I kept waiting and waiting for him but he never came there were 3 rooms joined together, with no doors. I thought of a circle for some reason, like the design of the house was round. First It was my room. (It was His bedroom, but there was just a bed in it) the middle room had just a bed but it had a large woman in it I knew her in real life, her name is Tammy, she slept with his roommate once, their relationship never went beyond that. Then my ex was in the room next to hers. The bed was next to the wall, things seemed kinda pink/purplish and his back was turned to me. He woke up and seemed distant toward me. The next thing I remember is her cooking in his kitchen and I freaked out and threw her down the stairs outside of the house. I remember crying to his friend Chelsea, saying "This was my second chance, this was suppose to be my second chance" I felt like I was refurring to my last relationship before him and how this was suppose to be different. Then I woke up. I just remember feeling hurt and rejected by him, even without him speaking to me much during the dream.

( I notice that in a lot of my dreams I'm in a house/trailer, usually broken down and decaying. Not always the same one either. They're different each time. Other times in in my grandmothers house. Others in a school theatre)

I'm in some manner of waiting room, talking with a priest - I'm hoping to get his opinion on a dilemma that's been on my mind. But as I describe it to him, he gets increasingly uncomfortable. Finally he seizes on something I've said that he can turn into a sort of keyword - along the same lines of "crisis of faith" or "act of god," some familiar phrase. When I agree that yes, you could think of it that way, he seems relieved. He launches into a sort of canned speech on that keyword. I'm disappointed. This isn't the conversation I'd hoped it would be.

Janette arrives then, rescuing me, and I stand up to give her a quick kiss. The priest seems as relieved to be able to end the conversation politely as I am. It's been a while since I've met up with Janette, and she's dressed as a widow again, with a black veil over her eyes; I think this is the first time I've seen her in a veil since the 1950s. She's stunning as ever.

As we leave she teases me about being disappointed by that priest, about always looking for answers in all the wrong places. The conversation drifts, and as we step out onto the sidewalk I'm saying to her, "No, no, no - unless you wanted him." She makes a face. I'm teasing - that priest wouldn't exactly be her first choice of meal, and neither of us have been hunting people at all lately. But now we're both thinking about blood.

We head back to my place, and we immediately start up the stairs to the bedroom, but halfway up the stairs I leave her to go back down and take the phone off the hook, saying something about no distractions this time. The observer side of me remembers how this will turn out - when the woman I work with couldn't get through on the phone, she turned up at the door instead, and saw Janette wearing my robe. First time she'd seen Janette, and although it wasn't anything notable at the time, it eventually wound up raising unfortunate questions.

I was in a broken down old house that was set on some support beams above water and mud. Maybe a river bank. I remember that my ex had called me. Specifically, he called me to apologize and he wanted me back. I remember wondering out of the door, over a wooden plank on to an open platform, I could see that I was very high, the sky was cloudy, like it was going to start raining. I jumped to another house straight across from the platform and it looked a lot like the other house only it was way more run down. The floor was weak and every time I took a step it creaked and bowed beneath my weight. I was still on the phone with my ex and I eventually stepped on a weak spot and fell through the floor. I remember a dusty Tv on a dusty dresser in the room where I fell. When I fell I landed in the mud, about chest deep, and not long after that, the dresser and tv fell but barley missed me. I must've went into a deeper sleep, because I can't remember much else.

My first dream journal entry! #WOOOT
DISCLAIMER: all Iife is dream so I post on waking life events.
So I was considering why certain dreams, especially for me that of waking life, appear so stable and unshakeable. I had the epiphany that it may be because of the certainty with which I believe in what is presented to me. Obviously people have considered this before, but this 'I' is a more all-encompasing 'I'.

A lot of people believe in something called Physics in many of my waking dreams. The masses believe in it so solidly that it is taught globally and even engrained in the minds of youth. Still, I am aware that since this is my dream all of these people are 'I'. In these dreams however, we are distinctly sperate. I am one entity semi aware I am dreaming vs. A crowd mostly unawares.

Creating this separation makes 'me' small and 'they' big. In the same way perhaps this separation makes even my lucid energy small and their group thought energy immense, snuffing out the ability for my lucid desires to manifest.

So maybe awareness that all is me will help build lucid control?