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• I'm at my former apartment. I look outside my window and I can see a RAGING fire and HUGE billowing black smoke. I can actually FEEL the heat in the dream. I call 911. I actually speak to someone, but I can't remember what I said. (Bathroom blaze?) Firetrucks finally arrive. I'm worried about fire coming to my unit but for some reason I don't leave. I _FEEL_ heat on my wall.

If that wasn't lucid, I don't know what was.

Hello DV! Finally broke my dryspell, which lasted 29 days. My last lucid dream was on March 25, so it's been awhile, but I finally broke it last night. Sadly, most of the dream is lost in my subconscious now, but I can recall a few things at least, both lucid and non-lucid.

I recall being in some sort of store of something with my friends and classmates. I also recall driving out of a gas station parking lot, and two guys cut me off in their car, but then allowed me to drive out into the interesection(sorry lol the parts I remember weren't too interesting).

Lucidly I recall the time shortly after becoming lucid. I fell backwards once to make the clarity of the dream better, and it worked quite well. Not too long after that the dream almost felt like real waking life. My ADA was kicking in to the maximum, so the details in the environment around me were staggeringly realistic. Not only was the area detailed down to each speck of dust, but my body also felt very lively and at work like it would feel in real life. I've noticed that normally the body just feels empty in dreams to me, and this is probably the same for other people too. Bottom line, I'm very happy with the results of the ADA method.

Now onto a few updates:
I'm finishing up this year of school, and so the end of the year stress is starting kick in. I have to constantly worry about my grades, and the mounds of work my teachers are giving me. This has been affecting my dream recall quite horribly, because I've been quite stressed out. I noticed that once this school settled in my LD count from the summer went out the window, and I've been having dryspells for the whole school year. I've been practicing All Day Awareness(ADA) since June, and it's continuing to prove useful in capturing the detail of my dreams, but it's harder to practice in the day time when it's never the first thing on my mind, especially in school.

Recently, just this week in fact, I've been thinking about returning to the DEILD method, considering I tend to wake up unintentionally at least once a night, sometimes twice, or even three times. It's a very hard method to get started with, because it requires you to not move or open your eyes when you awake, so it's been difficult to have my mind immediately have a twitch reaction to not do so when I awake. I almost had it last night though, so I could've had two lucids! So hopefully I can pull that together soon, and hopefully when summer returns I can get back to having weekly to biweekly lucids again.

I think I had this dream due to how disgusting one of my mom's friend's house is, and I had gone there recently. I mean it is pretty bad. I would describe it if it didn't make me gag but I will end of sort of describing it because of this dream I had last night.

Anyways, The dream started out where I was at a Seaworld exhibit but to me it looked like someone had a pool in there backyard and was keeping sea animals there. Anyways I have had this come up in dreams A LOT from as far back as childhood around age 6 or so. Scenario; I'm supposed to be at a sea life exhibit and it turns out to look more like someone's backyard exhibit.

The dream morphs into an event that was supposed to have happened but never did since my family is fairly clean. I was with my family and I was insulted by the chaotic mess they left all over the house. It was a wreck. I went into the bathroom to take a shower and it was filthy, just not nearly as bad as the shitty public bathroom dreams (literally). There were diapers left in the trash. I was impaled by the smell and was yelling out for someone to clean up their children's mess, but everyone was zoned out and walking around like there wasn't anything to clean. I finally just gave up trying to get them to help me clean and thought "fine, if you like living in a mess then you live in it but I'm leaving" and then I woke up.

I probably had a dream about this because I recently got out of a situation where I was enslaved to clean up after a filthy man due to his poor disgusting habits that he was bred in and still his mom cleans up after him. Hated my life then, glad its over.

My dream recall is finally getting better again! I remembered four different dreams last night. I won't post them all, just the one that I thought was kind of interesting because this DJ needs more entries

So I was swimming at a beach or something of some sort. It was very sunny outside and the water was very deep. There were quite a lot of people swimming that I could see, and my family was there (I swear, they've been in like 99% of my dreams lately). We were all playing tag and having fun and when everyone was done swimming the water was completly sucked out from under us and we were all instantly dry...Then we proceeded across the sandy floor into a blue, glass, modern looking building in front of us and I suppose here was where we changed out of our swimsuits. The walls were blue, the carpet was a slightly darker blue and I also remember seeing a front desk and changing rooms. I went into one of the changing rooms and was really, really angry because my mom had forgotten to bring me a shirt. It was a really strange dream Imagine if that was how public pools or beaches were; When you're done swimming the water is just sucked away and your completly dried XD

Also I remember at some point last night, I had woken up and tried to do a DEILD. I think it almost worked? I was sort of "sucked" into a dream or something. The setting looked like where my last lucid ended: a Walmart. The second I appeared in the dream I could feel the dream wavering and slipping away so I rubbed my hands together and said different things to try and stabilise it, but it didn't work Really sucks. I felt so close!

Oh well! Will keep on trying.

As soon as my first dream faded, I had another one that involved being in the same house. I was at the computer, and I'm supposing that this would be sometime in the future because I got sucked into another video game (***I had done this before in last night's dream***).

It was a mixture between Mario and Pokemon, as in there was a pixelated image of Wario pacing back and forth like some of the trainers in the Pokemon games do. It also had the same interface as Pokemon (***I'm guessing I'm having so many dreams about video games is because my 3DS broke and I've been angry***). That quickly faded and I was back at the computer shortly.

I decided to look up some things about my family history as I used to have an account on Ancestry.com or something. When I typed in my grandma's name, an image of someone who was most definitely not my grandma popped up (however I recognized her in the dream). I was reading history and it turned out she had gone to jail for a few years because she'd robbed a couple places when she was younger.

I woke up after making that shocking discovery!

Things that stand out:

• In a house I didn't know
• Got sucked into a video game
• I couldn't recognize my grandma
• My grandma does not have a criminal background in actuality!

My parents and I had just moved into a new house. My mom's schedule got changed at work, so I was supposed to be watching over the house for the night, which would be something I'd normally be afraid of, but in my dream I wasn't.

I can't remember exactly happened, but sometime during the evening I'm pretty sure my dg (the one in my picture) got loose. I scrambled out of my house and got in my dad's truck. I was terrible at driving, per usual, so I ended up just going into a big circle. Somehow Shadow (my dog) appeared in the back seat, so I thought nothing of it and drove in another big circle back into the driveway.

So Shadow and I go back into the house where the other two are sitting. As I'm making my way into the bathroom, I notice that a door to a bedroom we don't really use is open. I brush it off, thinking it's the wind and then the dream faded.


Things that stand out:

• My mom uses the truck, so I couldn't have driven it in reality
• I lived in a house that I didn't know
• Shadow randomly appeared in the truck

Dream
Lucidity

I either knew I was dreaming or having a dream about lucid dreaming. I jumped over a rail and noticed my dream getting blurry. I noticed a male to my right and knew there was another person behind me and to my left. I looked at my hands and said "stabilize the dream!" and then realized I was dreaming.
I had 4 fingers and my middle finger was unusually big. I tried to summon my sister but it didn't work. I stood there for a while, thinking of what to do. I remember the floor looked really polished and pretty. It was tile and had brown and white colors. I started to dream spin and again, it looked like I was in a tornado with purple arrows pointing in the direction I was spinning. I didn't know where to go so I just spun until I suddenly remembered: EASTER EGGS! My girlfriend made a noise in the waking world and caused me to wake up.

Fell asleep meditating on the idea of lucidity, and a particular location ("Home Base"). I don't generally expect to attain lucidity during my first few periods of REM, nor do I really want to. Zoning out and just letting sleep happen is nice, in and of itself.

I had some new forms of success and ran into some familiar problems...

Had dreams. Don't recall them. I need to get better about writing stuff down, but don't want to disturb my boyfriend, either. I still don't feel like they were particularly vivid, coherent, or noteworthy... dreams from the first few hours of the night generally aren't.

Settled back to sleep meditating on home base. Slipped into gray fog. At some point, attained lucidity... had the sense that it was near the very beginning of a dream because I have no recollection of a dream up until that point, but suddenly I was sitting at a table with a pile of colorful alphabet-letter magnets on it. I touched and examined them, and then the grey fog reclaimed the dream. I slowly woke up.

Settled back down and began meditating again. Body slowly settled back into sleep; my limbs became numb and I felt like I was drifting.

This is normally the point I'd have trouble with a WILD. At this point, I would normally try to start moving, sit up out of my body, and feel a way that I can only really describe as feeling "tangled in a blanket" - mentally flailing around but unable to really get anywhere or do anything, still stuck in the fog. Sometimes, it's instinctive, so it's been hard to shake the habit, but last night I was actually able to remain mindful and stay still.

I felt as if I was drifting in a river. My body was numb and the idea of being attached to or "in" it was going away. I tried to sink into the river even more... I felt my head sink through the pillow and my body sink through the bed, and sank down into the gray fog.

Drifted for a while. I watched the fog so that I didn't end up drifting out of lucidity. I waited for shapes to appear in the fog. Sometimes shadowy shapes would appear. This is normally where I might have trouble again - trying to will them to BE something, without anything really coalescing... wanting them to BE something... getting frustrated and exerting myself too much mentally and waking up as a result. This time, I just let them fade in and out. I still paid attention to them and tried to examine them, but I tried to remain as objective as possible - trying to see patterns and shapes in them without trying to force them to "be" anything. I knew that if I kept doing this, eventually I could coax one of them into reality.

Eventually a shadowy room came into being, and became reality. I was standing in the living-room of my mother's old apartment in Florida. It didn't have any furniture and was fairly empty. The alphabet magnets from before were scattered on an end table in the center of the room. It felt pretty "solid". I examined the brown carpet and patted the wall. I walked through the room, toward the hallway, running my hand along the wall so that I didn't lose lucidity. I wanted to do a scene change - this place wasn't where I wanted to be, and it was boring. I walked up to the door and willed it to open to a location I actually wanted to be in (again, home base).

I opened the door, and there was... another door? I opened that door, and behind it was another door. I felt irritated and opened that door, willing it to be the location that I wanted, but it opened into the apartment atrium.

I walked across the atrium and opened one of the doors to another apartment. That door led back into the atrium. I got an idea - something told me to try to dive through a door and use it like a portal. I dove through a door and opened my eyes to my actual bedroom. I should have known that this was potentially a false awakening, but instead I just went back to sleep.

I dreamed I was hanging out with a few of my friends. We were going to Full Throttle Bottles, but in the dream, Full Throttle was not the store I was familiar with, and it was not in the location where it would have normally been. Instead, we were all walking down a street full of nothing but liquor stores. We went into one of them and a friend bought a bottle of vodka that was in a bottle like a soda bottle and tasted like orange-flavored cream soda. I liked it, so I bought one myself. I kept thinking that it was odd that the store clerk hadn't carded any of us, but didn't manage to figure out that it was because this was a dream.

We walked up to a place that looked kind of like a castle. It had brown, smooth bricks. I jumped down a wall and my friend grabbed my arm and jumped down with me. I remember thinking it was a very long way to jump and was surprised I hadn't hurt myself a lot, but reasoned that it was because my friend was taller and had held me up kind of like a balloon.

I then dreamed about a flying cartoon skunk whose super power was smelling so bad that the odor killed evil things.

Dream
Lucidity
Notes

I was playing Dishonored and saw an ultra hard difficulty setting so I started playing on that. It was arena type mode with challenges every stage. I was actually in the game fighting and had access to the power selection wheel. The first challenge was to get people to kill each other without me killing them. I went through many challenges and a lot of fighting but as I was running from 2 women and a lot of monsters, I entered a room and said "Alright I'm done" because I was so tired. I got congratulated for making it so far by the girls chasing me and had a man on a computer take pictures of me and them. I saw a digital picture frame with other people who I knew got top scores and among them were some of my family members. The girls told me they were going back home and I was teleported onto the ocean where I was swimming.
There were a lot of sea creatures and I was swimming along side some whales, who reminded me of one of the girls. The dream reminded me of the dream I had on 4/21/2014, where I was sailing the ocean with my family on a car. I saw plenty of cars but this time they were headed towards me. I said "Here I come!" and saw a boat speeding towards me. Suddenly a helicopter comes and its rotors cause me to get blown away. I pretend I'm taking apart an easter egg and suddenly become lucid.
I'm floating on the water and at the tip of my fingers, an easter egg that looks like a yellow bunny. I remember the water being deep. I opened the easter in half. The bottom portion had a green toy or figurine. The top portion had a yellow and tan toy/figurine. I took them both out and bit into each. It hurt my tooth because they were a hard plastic. I looked at them and read their information on the back of the toys. It said where they were made, by what company, copyrights, etc. I came to shore onto a facility and thought I'd prank a dream character. I said "I want a person to be here" and as I walked, I saw my cat Lucy. I added, "a person that's not Lucy!" I stepped up to the facility doors and a man asked me to identify. I know I've been there before and knew what to do and say. I said my name and that I was wearing black. I took off my duty belt which didn't have anything on it and stepped through. I saw a janitor, who was old and fat and told him to follow me outside. My plan was to make him go outside and have to get access to the facility again. He was suspicious of me and said "If you're trying to make me come out, I have a badge to get in" he then proceeded to tell me how the badge was not his and he actually stole it. I yelled at him to give me the badge but he ran away, outside of the facility and into some sort of cave. I lost lucidity and started yelling at nothing for a badge then slowly started to wake up.

Before bed, I stayed up a long time repeating to myself "I open easter eggs" and imagining me opening easter eggs. While I was walking out, the janitor asked me for the time and I looked at my watch and told him some weird time. My lucidity was low during this dream.

Was at a cabin in the mountains with my parents, my dad's relatives, and some random people. My dad demanded that I clean all the dogs that were there. I guess that made me a little bit lucid because I grabbed some random DC lady and dragged her downstairs for some fun time. Then I became a little more lucid and remembered what I wanted to do. I dropped the DC lady like a bag of luggage and stared into a mirror. I looked normal. I began the energy work, feeling it flow through the ground, up through my body, my spine, and out my head. I guess I expected to see some visual representation of it but I didn't. It started out very weak feeling too. I noticed my head was missing in the mirror. I decided to go walk through the winter forest outside. As I stepped outside I said that it would not be cold, but it would be warm. The snow was slightly warm and the temperature was probably 75F with a cool breeze. Was a really strange sensation, feeling warm snow beneath my feet with that familiar crunch that happens when stepping on it. I kept doing the energy work as I walked through the forest, amplifying it. I started to feel compassion swell up in my chest, at this point I saw little rainbows appear all over. Heh. They disappeared after a few seconds but the snow began sparkling with several different colors. I kept amplifying the feeling as I walked down towards a frozen lake, felt wonderful. I woke up, was determined to DEILD even though I felt like jumping out of bed and running a marathon. I patiently waited for the next dream to start.

I was at my parents' house and I said, "that was quicker than I had expected". I walked outside with a big smile on my little dream face, I still felt the afterglow of the energy work. I tried to walk through a fence. Struggled a little bit but then I imagined I was transparent and I slipped right through. Woke up again. DEILD'd same thing.

I was now a child at an elementary school cafeteria, hanging out with childhood friends. Some angry bully came along and tried to mess with them so I got up and gave him a big hug filled with love and he walked away with a smile on his face. I sat there for a couple minutes, half listening to them talk about taking actual measurements of the brain's activity during deep meditation. I was really just enjoying the feeling of contentment and joy that I was experiencing. I suddenly saw the recurring dream girl DC that I always seem to love. I walked over to her and touched her face. I remembered her face this time when I woke up. Sort of. I really want to do this again.

At about 6:30 to 7:30 am.
dream of a HUGE earthquake here in So Cal. It was at least a 7 on the R.scale. I was swaying in my hallway and grabbed the door jam to stay upright. I yelled out for my kids and told them "hold on, this is a big one". Looking back now that I am awake, this could have been an oobe. Not my usual experience. Very vivid and the movement was accurate for a very large earthquake.

This dream was long and detailed but when I woke up it fragmented and I find it hard to describe some of the things I saw and experienced, even though I can still "see" it in my mind. There were two parts to this dream. (Possible Trigger Warning for some people near the end of these dreams.)

First part:
Hotel on top of the Mountain.
A short, corpulant man with short dark hair, who looks like Danny DeVito (so I will call him Danny though he was unnamed in the dream) invites me to his room in a highly populated hotel on top of a steep mountain for sex. Though it is a large, lavish hotel, people live in the rooms like apartments rather then rent them. I agree but he then insist on taking me to a privacy room, called a Sky Room, so we can get it on in peace without people listening in. The rooms are very close together and very small, all with a light yellow colour scheme (walls, sheets, carpet, all light yellow coloured) and it's easy to hear your neighbours.

From the outside the hotel looks like an ancient European castle of dark grey stone, but inside the layout is not square but cylindrical. In the center of the hotel is a large shaft called the "Elevator" which goes up to individual themed rooms for rent that exist high in the sky and supposedly offer the hotel residence some privacy for a few hours (hence why they are called "Sky Rooms"). To get to the hotel on top of the mountain, people must take a large ski lift (called the "tram" in the dream) from a valley far below. The journey is long and dangerous because sometimes the wind blows the tram right off the wires and people die plummeting hundreds of feet to the ground below. After learning about the dangers of the tram I understand why people decide to stay and live in the hotel rather than risk coming and going on the tram.

Danny and I look around for one for rent but they are all occupied and the next one won't become free for two hours. I see a timer slowly counting down the time. The countdown time 1:31:00 sticks in my mind for some reason, after I see it on Danny's countdown clock. Danny and I sit in silence in his hotel room, occasionally smiling at each other, but our passion for sex quickly fading as the time slowly ticks away. I vaguely recall being in one of the Sky Rooms and hearing people in one below ours having sex and thinking "These are not as private as advertised." Despite remembering thinking that in the dream Danny and I never actually rented a Sky Room because none became free before we both lost interest in each other and went our separate ways.

I woke up and laid awake for a few minutes, contemplating getting on DV to record this, but I was too tired and decided to go back to sleep. I am surprised I remembered as much of the first part upon awakening as I did, but maybe because the second part was similar in some ways.

Second part:
Space Military School
The same circular hotel with the large elevator in the middle still exists, but now it is located in orbit around earth. The hotel rooms are now classrooms or training rooms and not living residences. Some students and faculty members do live there if they are rich and can afford to, but most of the students are poor and live down on the Earth, and have to use the Elevator everyday to get to class. The base of the Elevator is located in a thick, dark temperate forest and it's shaft reaches all the way into space.

I am waiting for the Elevator car to arrive and I wander behind the shaft and see a two-storey log cabin with many windows. Through the windows I can see dozens and dozens of owls and they all seems to be flapping against the windows in an attempt to get out. The owls looks like snowy owls, but most are all different sizes and there are a few color variations other than white and brown. I notice one very small owl that is colored bright red with golden tips on it's wings and tail. I can't see anyone inside the building and I can't stay to help the owls as the elevator car arrives and I have to get on it or I will miss my class.

The school is run with very strict rules and poor students are treated with less regard than wealthy ones. The Principle is a Commander from the Earth based Military and treats all students of all levels and background as soldiers in training. He dislikes being the school master and dreams of the glories of war. The Principle is a handsome man who shows interest in marrying me for some reason and one night he kidnaps me after class and takes me to his quarters. He leaves me in the care of three of his male subordinates with strict instructions that I am not to be harmed. I am imprisoned in a white room and not allowed to leave until I agree to marry the Principle. While I am locked in the room the Principle organizes the students and uses them as soldiers to attack facilities on the earth. The subordinates in charge of watching me hear about the attacks and get drunk to celebrate. The three of them become so inebriated they forget about the command that I am not to be harmed and I am viciously and repeatedly gang raped. When the Principle returns he is furious that I am bruised and bleeding and emotionally detached because of the rape and he violently kills the drunken guards one by one with his own hands. The dream ends with the Principle trying to comfort me but I just gaze out the window looking into space without responding to him.

I'm in the courtyard of my primary school.
Someone is saying that something bad happened in the interstellar space and everyone is scared.
I come in the school looking for a tv, but it seems communications broke after this catastrophe.
It comes to my mind that my sister is alone home, so I start to run towards home, but roads are very crowded and I need to jump on cars and trucks and junks in order to go on.
Finally I'm in the last part of the route to reach my home but Sun is darken and it starts to be very cold.
So I stop to a shop to buy some duvets but the owner is gone, so I decide to take his place and make people pay, instead of just stealing clothes.
As I'm trying to write an invoice for a man buying a bearskin, my sister came and says that train is leaving so again we have to speed up.
She has the keys of a yellow car, but when we sit in, it's clear that it's a horse and I'm worried as in the station there is not a park for horse.

NON LUCID
*I remember staking at this office building area. Every trick I attempt to do was a fail. I thought I completely lost all of my skills but in no time I will have then back. I tried to kick flip, 360, and something else. I was also skating with my brother who managed to pull off a 360 shove it.

*I was at the dharma center when Lama Dorjee asked me if I was doing to ok? I said Yes confidently. Then he asked me again and I said a responds basically implying that because of my meditation practice I have came such a long way. This expression of confidence in meditation caused all the people surrounding me to smile.

So last night I went to sleep at around 11pm and set my alarm for 4:30am. I woke up, got a snack and reset my alarm to 6am and went back to bed. I had attempted to keep my mind active and let my body sleep with hopes of going into paralysis but something strange happened. My mind went to sleep and I drempt that I never did. In my dream I was lying on my bed with my computer on my chest turned onto Omegle.com. ( It's a peer to peer website that matches your webcam up with another randomly and you chat) Just as I drempt of entering paralysis my best friend came up on the screen with her friend and didn't notice it was me she was looking at. Her appearance was slightly different with a blue streak in her hair and I thought it was a little strange but I went with it. I tried breaking out and saying "Hi" but I couldn't talk and she skipped me.