The Fallen Petals of Subaru - A Poetry Collection

[Seanchaidh]

La Mariposa I follow you, up into the mountain forest. Where the sunlight, from the setting sun, illuminates the ephemeral cherry blossoms. Your glittering wings, flutter gracefully on the soft autumn breeze, and sparkle in the ethereal, amber light. I remember us; Embracing by the fountain in the centre of town. It is approaching sunset, and the street life is dying. We sit there gazing into the crystal water. “Te quiero.” Your suddenly whisper, softly in my ear. I smile. “Le amo tambien.” I whisper back. Slowly we begin to kiss. The roughness of the rock beneath us; the harsh roars of passing cars; the fading golden light – none of it seemed to matter. Time was only measured in your heart beating against mine. I wipe away a tear, The vividness of the memory, aches my heart. Your flutter deeper into the dense forest. I chase after you, but the encroaching dark, shrouds you from my eyes. I remember that night; the miserable rain, hammering down upon the rough road. You and I were running, trying to find shelter. Then a blaze of white illuminated everything. Then a roar – oh a loud roar – exploded in our ears. Then I felt you warm hands, Pull me close – as if for the last time – and then push me to the side. My hands scream As they strike the ground. The sound came suddenly. The sickening sound of something breaking, then being smacked against the ground. Silence. I turn around to find you lying there, your clothes are stained crimson. "¡Socorro!” I scream. I run up and down the dark, deserted road. "¡Socorro!” I scream again, "¡Hubo un accidente!” You continue to lie there not moving. Tears are pouring down my cheeks, as I remember you there - so vulnerable. I race after you, through the forest. "¡Espere!” I cry, "¡Espéreme!" A strong southerly wind, shakes the overhead branches. Cherry blossom petals, soaked from a previous day’s rain, shimmer as they fall like snow to the ground. I call out to you again, but you just continue. Your shining wings, sear a rift in the surrounding darkness, illuminating a gravestone - your gravestone. I fall to my knees, my soul cracks open. The grief I kept laden in my heart, rushes out like the outgoing tide. My hands pummel the dirt, my scream fills the dark. Those final days, come rushing back, with as much force as a tidal wave. I remember waiting, the silent waiting in the emergency room. Every tick of the overhead clock, like a fire of a gun. My heart feels ready to burst. I can’t stop shaking. I feel like a leaf caught in a wind, unable to control itself let alone anything around it. After painful ages, a macabre doctor appears. His eyes looked empty, his face ashen. My soul sank, my heart stood still. I stand up, waiting expectantly for his verdict. “ Lo siento.” He mumbles to the floor. "¡No!” My cry resounds throughout the hall as I crash to the floor. My tears, everyone an ounce of my soul falls through time and space before crashing to the ground. Your funeral I’ll never forget. I stood by your coffin the whole procession. The white oak, looked so rough and uncomfortable. I was certain you couldn’t have enjoyed being in there. Your face however, looked more peaceful than I had ever seen it. The light from the sunset, shone gently on you - as if caressing you – giving you an angelic quality. I felt like shaking you, and yelling, "¿Por qué?” over and over till my lungs burst. I felt like hitting you, we still had our whole lives to live together, how dare you leave me here all alone! Mourners came and went, but I stayed by your side. I placed red and white roses on your coffin as they lowered you. I fled unable to stand anymore. Later that day, I found myself at the lake, you and I had swam in, Earlier that summer. The setting sun rays, were dancing On the lake’s calm surface when we were there. As we lay on its banks the light shone on your dark hair, And it brightened your smile. I casually asked you, if you were reincarnated, What would you come back as. Your turned to me and grinned, “Una mariposa.” you replied. Sitting in front of your grave now, I was jarred from my memories back to reality. Una mariposa? I glanced at you, as fluttered up into The strengthening dawn, too far for my outstretched hand. Una mariposa…