Interesting. So self awareness is that draining huh? Not really surprising, I started taking it rather very seriously since yesterday, I have to kinda force myself to remain mindful because it's so easy to get distracted. Yesterday I was mindful about 75-80% of the day and damn, was it tiresome. Fortunately my sleep schedule is stable and I have a good amount of free time and minimal stress so I hope it won't be as bad as it was for you, and hopefully it gets easier after a while.
As for the intention thing, I don't think it's impossible or stupid, the thing is, I think it has some prerequisites, specifically, good (self) awareness and (prospective?) memory. Maybe the reason why the intention worked so well for you is because you had already trained your awareness so much before?
Then stick with it man, because its definitely worth it. Its not really tiresome at all, school is just what made it so tiring for me. When school was alot slower I had no problem keeping to Self Awareness until i joined all Pre-Ap classes, which is why I have so much work now. But in all dude, its almost effortless to stick with self awareness after you've been with it for some time, say 2 weeks. Even after those two weeks, two weeks more, that mindset will feel pretty close to second nature. After a month and a week of practice with no breaks I'd say you've got it perfected. This isn't something that "takes years to master" as many would say, its just a mindset.
In the same way, Lucid Dreaming is just you coming to the realization that you are dreaming. It takes literally 1 thought to become lucid in a dream, so thats why I think most people over-analyze alot when it comes to the hobby. It doesn't have to take years of practice, it all depends on what you believe. On the side of using just plain intention, yes I would say that I have amazing prospect memory. Even though I have stopped practicing self awareness, I am still very aware of what is going on, but that wasn't natural for me, it just clicked one day because I realized how easy lucid dreaming is.
So mimihigurashi, what I have to say in the end is: stick with it, stick with it, stick with it. It is well worth the practice.
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