Congratulations on all your success. (Meanwhile I haven't had a lucid for a long time; note to self, remember to try EFT). I'm glad things are working out for you; see I told you...just keep it up, confidence is the main thing. What have you got to lose? Don't take things too seriously. You know how in relationships they say that there is one who loves, and one who is loved? WEll I always wanted to be the one who was loved, I thought that was the best place to be to protect myself (from rejection or whatever). But then I got into a relationship that went the other way, and I found out rather than being vulnerable position, being the one who does the loving is the most fun and most exciting even tho you can get hurt more easily. It is worth it. (Now ten years later it doesn't matter much either way of course.) I don't know if that has anything to do with your situation, but I think rejection or whatever you fear may not really be as bad as you think, especially compared with alternative of missing out on fun and sex and everything.