Hello folks,

Lately (since a week or so) I've been attempting to do a WILD now and then. Usually, I just lie down in a room without much sound and light. At the start of each WILD endeavor, I think "Hmm, I wonder if this will work, oh well, who cares, at least I try." After 5 minutes, I begin to feel relaxed. Then, after those 5 minutes, I start visualizing random scenes. Sometimes random scenes (not by 'myself&#39 are generated, and I usually snap out of them after some time when I realize that it's something generated by my subconscious mind. When I do this, I sometimes get a weird feeling (kind of like falling, but less?). After doing this for 30 minutes, I don't feel as if anything has improved. This what I did in the afternoon (after 8 hours of sleep in the night). After 45 minutes (total) or so, I decided to call it a 'failure' (actually, you can never fail, you can only get closer to success each time you try it). However, I kind of felt tired, not really tired, just a little longing to be still lying down. (Does this mean I've reached a major alpha/minor theta stage?)

Sometimes after sleeping for 4 - 6 hours, I decide to try a WILD. Usually after getting up, and going to the bathroom, I do a little math to awaken my mind (I don't really do WBTB). I do this for 5 minutes? Then I lie down. I start thinking about random thoughts fast. I also find it hard to concentrate on what I've been concentrating about. After I snap out of a random thought by realizing it's only a thought, I get a tingly feeling, and I can hear a buzz. I do fall asleep without WILD'ing, and I don't even know when...

I've tried WILD before going to bed aswell. This seems to work the same as trying to WILD in the afternoon. After a while I start getting random thoughts (I can see things, well, I don't really see them, it's just a thought (mind's eye?). Whenever I snap out of them by realizing it's just a thought, I get that buzz feeling again. However, after a while I just fall asleep without knowing when I fell asleep.

Counting doesn't work for me. Concentrating on my breath doesn't work. Visualizing seems to work better than other things. I can usually feel my heartbeat. I think it's too fast? Even though I feel calm enough. I don't know what you guys think about this? Is anybody willing to help poor me?

Edit: Also, I would like to know when people report that they 'see things happen', do they mean REALLY seeing it as if in waking life or just through the mind's eye? I'm really being confused with this one. I can usually see things, but I think it's just my mind's eye... It's as if I have a clear visualization.