ok, last night I was dreaming and among other halo singleplayer mini-dreams, the last one was me and my basset hound gabby going on a road trip together, it took us a long time to get where we were going, we got on and off several trains and busses. we finally arrived at our location, it turned out to be an exact recreation of the shooting range from the last summer camp I worked at. people were just wandering about like tourists, then this girl over by the restroom catches my eye, she is just wandering aimlessly about. She looked like someone I knew from school, but there were several differences which clearly indicated that she wasn't anyone I knew. I stood there watching her for a bit, and then a thought came to me. "This is a dream, and she's a dream girl, she's not real at all." Suddenly I think about kissing her. I've never kissed a girl before, but my friends at school seem to enjoy it. I became curious as to what it felt like. I turned the idea about in my mind a few times the world seemed pretty real and I didn't want to do anything embarrasing, after all what would happen if this turned out to be real after all? I remember thinking, "Yeah, she looks like someone I know but she isn't that person so it's ok." So I walk over to her. she stops and with a blank stare we just look at each other for a few seconds, I proceed to put my hands on both sides of her head and kiss her gently. It was ok, felt pretty real I figure, but for some reason though there was no response at all, after I finished she just continued to look at me as if I was just air in front of her. So I try again this time maintaining contact for a little bit longer, she appeared only the least bit surprised, still while she felt real she could've basically been a post dressed up in a woman suit, at this point I'm feeling a little dissapointed, so I think, "maybe I'm not doing it with enough pressure", I get ready to do it again, and then I wake up. I felt pretty disillusioned by the whole idea of kissing after that, but I can't really judge that experience cause after all it was a dream.
what's wierd is here the only reason I even considered kissing her is because I concluded I was dreaming. but I didn't become lucid. What's the deal? I realized I was dreaming without being lucid? what should I do?
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