How come, some of my mind knows what I'm trying to do, but most of my mind doesn't want it to work.

For example, I tried to WILD this morning. I gave up on it trying it because I my mind kept trying to think of something else and I would automatically think of something else. But, after I gave up, I had a dream where I was asking people why my WILD wasn't working, and I wasn't lucid!

WTF's wrong with me?